Vroum
Help Support Loneliness, Depression & Relationship Forum:
Well... I've got some things I cannot get out of my head.
A description... My character is a pretty tough person, I stand 6'1", built, and have been boxing for the last 4 years. In high school I was a country kid, never really cared too much about what people thought. I'm more feared by many people, and I have a hard time hanging out with crowds or going to partys. No one usually bothers me, well because of my tough personality. I can tell that people around me are nervous, and watch what they say. It sucks because I don't really have any close friends because of it.
There is just some problems I don't know how to deal with.. My mother died when I was 13, I say and believe that my anger does not come from that, but I'm honestly not sure. I've been in so many fights throughout school, to the point were I severely hurt another guy, and got a criminal record for assault. That was years ago, I've tried to change, which I feel I have, but still I have no close friends. I just feel people are scared of me, and don't want to be around me. Being depressed about that leads on to loneliness and more problems.
So.. Since my mother passed away, I've been living with my father, and brother. I never really got along with my brother, sure we talk, but we don't hang out or bother with each other. My father.. Hardly. He has a new girlfriend, and is NEVER home on the weekends. He spends more time with her, and her son than he does with me and my brother, literally. There is hardly ever food in the house, so we most of the time go without. Our water well dried up, and doesn't fill up as fast as it should. Sometimes we are without water in the house for up to a week until it kicks back in, it runs dry again very quickly. Last winter I had to get up every morning before school, take a bucket and a hatchet, and break a hole in a stream that ran threw the back yard to get some water, I'd boil it, and wash my hair then go to school. Speaking of winter, our oil tank ran out, and my dad refused to get it filled because it cost so much. I went that winter without heat too.
I always had lots of friends and quite popular in school, hung out with the big group of popular kids. Still never cared what anyone thought, but always felt lonely too. Never really had many girlfriends. I felt thought that girls would be scared to get to know me because of my bad background... I'm not sure how to help that.. I'm quite, no one knows my situation. No one ever questioned me about how life is at home, because I could hide it well.
Oh, and don't feel bad about my previous situation, I went and got help and talked to many people during that winter.
A description... My character is a pretty tough person, I stand 6'1", built, and have been boxing for the last 4 years. In high school I was a country kid, never really cared too much about what people thought. I'm more feared by many people, and I have a hard time hanging out with crowds or going to partys. No one usually bothers me, well because of my tough personality. I can tell that people around me are nervous, and watch what they say. It sucks because I don't really have any close friends because of it.
There is just some problems I don't know how to deal with.. My mother died when I was 13, I say and believe that my anger does not come from that, but I'm honestly not sure. I've been in so many fights throughout school, to the point were I severely hurt another guy, and got a criminal record for assault. That was years ago, I've tried to change, which I feel I have, but still I have no close friends. I just feel people are scared of me, and don't want to be around me. Being depressed about that leads on to loneliness and more problems.
So.. Since my mother passed away, I've been living with my father, and brother. I never really got along with my brother, sure we talk, but we don't hang out or bother with each other. My father.. Hardly. He has a new girlfriend, and is NEVER home on the weekends. He spends more time with her, and her son than he does with me and my brother, literally. There is hardly ever food in the house, so we most of the time go without. Our water well dried up, and doesn't fill up as fast as it should. Sometimes we are without water in the house for up to a week until it kicks back in, it runs dry again very quickly. Last winter I had to get up every morning before school, take a bucket and a hatchet, and break a hole in a stream that ran threw the back yard to get some water, I'd boil it, and wash my hair then go to school. Speaking of winter, our oil tank ran out, and my dad refused to get it filled because it cost so much. I went that winter without heat too.
I always had lots of friends and quite popular in school, hung out with the big group of popular kids. Still never cared what anyone thought, but always felt lonely too. Never really had many girlfriends. I felt thought that girls would be scared to get to know me because of my bad background... I'm not sure how to help that.. I'm quite, no one knows my situation. No one ever questioned me about how life is at home, because I could hide it well.
Oh, and don't feel bad about my previous situation, I went and got help and talked to many people during that winter.