That's great of you!! I can't say anything that would add to your intention except its worthy of praise.
And you'd be surprised how emphatic you can be, of all people, I think us all have been through great depths. The way I saw it first, there's no where to go but up.
And its strange too you...
The thing with apathy is that you don't find pleasure or pain in the things you used to love, but you do feel this deep anger inside of you when you detect yourself rotting away and I can see that in your letter, desperation is the only thing that feels real right?
This is no time to panic...