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I just realized that I would much rather be around someone who hates me than be around someone I hate. I spent the entire weekend with someone I hate and I was absolutely miserable. Partly because no matter how much bleach and fresh lemon I scrubbed my hands with I could not rid my hands of the scented garbage bag. Fabuloso, which is awful, my ass they were doused in 72 hour Lume protection. Then I spend 45 minutes with someone who will never admit she hates me and I felt so much better. In a non sexual way her pain was my pleasure.
 
doctor called me on a Sunday to say, i need antibiotics wow all this sickness wasn't anxiety I feel slapped. I cant believe it, at least im 3% less crazy than I thought I was.
 
doctor called me on a Sunday to say, i need antibiotics wow all this sickness wasn't anxiety I feel slapped. I cant believe it, at least im 3% less crazy than I thought I was.

Oh no, you're ACTUALLY sick. 🥺😟 I hope you feel better. Make sure he gives you a refill option just in case.
 
Wow. The last 3 days have been turbulent, rocky, scary, terrifying and down right stormy. Thank you to those people who brought me back from the brink, it means so much to me and i will live to fight another day. Won't scare you again like that :)
Believe me I get it. I won't even go into anything about myself because I feel no one cares anyway, but I'm in that same sort of spot right now and I don't see this ending well. I won't sit here and give you a bunch of BS saying I care and all that because it's so easy to say and not mean it, too many say they care and couldn't care less, though I hope things turn around because as someone that has dealt with this for 20+ years I know it's awful to go through.
 
Being easily entertained is a blessing.
I simultaneously have the mind of a toyshop tinkerer, and that one child who dumps chili on all the toy cars and screams "volcano!" obnoxiously. 😅
 
Believe me I get it. I won't even go into anything about myself because I feel no one cares anyway, but I'm in that same sort of spot right now and I don't see this ending well. I won't sit here and give you a bunch of BS saying I care and all that because it's so easy to say and not mean it, too many say they care and couldn't care less, though I hope things turn around because as someone that has dealt with this for 20+ years I know it's awful to go through.
Thanks man. Glad you took the time to reply to me. Yeah, words are easy to say and that's why people just say them even though they don't give a poop at all. It just helps them sleep better at night.
 
Just thinking about how my landlord tries to screw me over and I CANT wait to move in a few months. He suggested that I renew the lease another year, and then he literally told me to break the lease and he would allow it, so that way I don't have to pay an extra $50 by going month to month. Wtf? Said the only fees I would pay are however long it takes him to re-rent the property which was about 2 days the last time. I couldn't believe he thought I was that gullible.. because he's not dumb in the slightest, he definitely thought this whole thing out exactly how it would work in his favor only.. but breaking a lease is a problem I don't want on my hands especially if it bites me in the ass trying to apply at other places. His word against mine. Plus there is no way it'd only take him 2 days to re-rent this place when it needs work that I didn't even cause. Y'all should see the fees in my lease... absolutely insane idk how its even legal. So its just a little bit funny to me that he thinks I would trust what he says when he's proven to be money hungry on several occasions. So I pay that extra $50 to cover my ass.. but at least it's not much longer.
 
Just thinking about how my landlord tries to screw me over and I CANT wait to move in a few months. He suggested that I renew the lease another year, and then he literally told me to break the lease and he would allow it, so that way I don't have to pay an extra $50 by going month to month. Wtf? Said the only fees I would pay are however long it takes him to re-rent the property which was about 2 days the last time. I couldn't believe he thought I was that gullible.. because he's not dumb in the slightest, he definitely thought this whole thing out exactly how it would work in his favor only.. but breaking a lease is a problem I don't want on my hands especially if it bites me in the ass trying to apply at other places. His word against mine. Plus there is no way it'd only take him 2 days to re-rent this place when it needs work that I didn't even cause. Y'all should see the fees in my lease... absolutely insane idk how its even legal. So its just a little bit funny to me that he thinks I would trust what he says when he's proven to be money hungry on several occasions. So I pay that extra $50 to cover my ass.. but at least it's not much longer.
Landlords in general are arseholes. Dunno where you're from, I'm from Montréal, in Quebec. I had to pay 650 for a 31/2(since I moved out, probably leases it 1000 now) with a rat inside the wall (probably several, those things come in groups) with him telling us "it came from outside, close your doors". You idiot. It comes from the sewers, followed the pipes in, along with the about 6 others you killed in the other apartments, check your DAMNED pipes...🙄
 
Just thinking about how my landlord tries to screw me over and I CANT wait to move in a few months. He suggested that I renew the lease another year, and then he literally told me to break the lease and he would allow it, so that way I don't have to pay an extra $50 by going month to month. Wtf? Said the only fees I would pay are however long it takes him to re-rent the property which was about 2 days the last time. I couldn't believe he thought I was that gullible.. because he's not dumb in the slightest, he definitely thought this whole thing out exactly how it would work in his favor only.. but breaking a lease is a problem I don't want on my hands especially if it bites me in the ass trying to apply at other places. His word against mine. Plus there is no way it'd only take him 2 days to re-rent this place when it needs work that I didn't even cause. Y'all should see the fees in my lease... absolutely insane idk how its even legal. So its just a little bit funny to me that he thinks I would trust what he says when he's proven to be money hungry on several occasions. So I pay that extra $50 to cover my ass.. but at least it's not much longer.
Oh wow! What an awful situation, its like you cant even trust anyone to be genuinely offering you a mutually beneficial situation these days.
 
I don't even know. There are so many bad thoughts, I don't know where to begin. I haven't slept in 24 hours, and definitely can't see myself sleeping now. To say I'm struggling would be an understatement. I'm just falling apart
 
I'm privileged, having inherited the house I grew up in, so I don't have to pay for some arsehole's retirement or overseas trips. Then again that's a big reason I never matured properly, surrounded by the same walls since childhood, never flatting and learning to live with others like a healthy person. But I can't sell up because it meant everything to her. A blessing and a curse.
 
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I'm privileged, having inherited the house I grew up in, so I don't have to pay for some arsehole's retirement or overseas trips. Then again that's a big reason I never matured properly, surrounded by the same walls since childhood, never flatting and learning to live with others like a healthy person. But I can't sell up because it meant everything to her. A blessing and a curse.
You are very blessed there are so many more ways to mature Ardour, maybe you have and you dont give yourself credit, you work, you invest in your hobbies and thats amazing 😇
 

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