Bipolar for 30+ years here. I like Tiinas suggestion. Many galleries could use volunteers, or if you feel up to it, teach. I volunteer at a museum and nature preserve. Helps keep me busy, and I learn things. It keeps me motivated.
You can be lonely on the most crowded bus, subway or festival. It doesn't matter how many people are around you. It's a state of mind. There are always clubs and organizations that you can look into to socialize. Having similar interests will encourage conversation.
Some of the most intelligent and creative people in history have also been the loneliest. They don't see what others see. They don't act like others act. Yet they were successful.
My grandfather died at 55 of heart problems. My dad 65 of the same, plus he drank. I had a cousin drop dead of a heart attack at 37. I am taking care of myself, but as I approach 50, I really wonder how much time I have left.
Value is what you make it. I'm unable to work, do to disability. I also have trust issues with people. At the same time, I need to do something to make my life meaningful. I do volunteer work. This way, I can contribute a small way to society. Sometimes you never know what kind of impact that...
I'm bipolar,and there are times i feel the same as you. Even just getting out for walk can help. If you love art, maybe there's a gallery somewhere you could volunteer?
So many writers, Thoreau, Burroughs, Emerson, found beauty in solitude. There's something about it that people don't get. When you're alone, you have the entire world to yourself. What more could you want?
I try to like people, really. I do like kids. I know that most of their problems comes from their upbringing. I prefer to be alone, or with animals. They're more honest than people.
Yeah, I have had a lot of bitterness. I've honestly tried to put it behind me. Anytime the thoughts came into my head i would try to stop it and think of something else. Sometimes it works. Little by little I've gotten better.
Is there any kind of volunteer work you could do? Lord knows there are plenty of organizations that need them. it an give a sense of purpose to help others, plus it looks good on resumes.
I can be very much a people hater sometimes. That's because I've been screwed over by them so many times. I also find them rude. Not that I'm the best person in the world. At least I make an effort to improve myself.