03-28-2020, 04:08 AM
(03-20-2020, 08:04 AM)Futurecatlady2 Wrote: I'm 32, female, never been in love or been loved. I had one relationship which lasted a year. I used to have unfounded hope that things would change but I'm finally accepting that most likely, they won't. I don't know what is so special about me that this universal, almost inevitable human experience has passed me by.
I can't have everything. My life has no joy but it is easy at least. It is not too hard to just keep existing.
That sounds a lot like me actually, I'm 35 and have only had two actual relationships (one lasted just shy of a year when I was 19-20, and one that lasted 4 months when I was 29). I had a pretty horrible online relationship in my mid-20s that contributed a lot to being a lonely and isolated person that never does anything, but I think a lot of the damage that one did has gone away.
Like I said in the other thread, I wish I had some sort of advice, but I really don't, unfortunately. I'm just as lost in this situation as you are. I hope you can find some happiness, though, and maybe I can someday find some myself.