ghostly..theroadhome
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i feel very sick in my tummy, my head feels dizzy...i feel confused
need sumone to help me ... breaking down again
my mom has been really going at me since the weekend since i was positive and things were going well
She keeps threatening that people who do wrong will fail, with the implication that im doing wrong when im not.
the anger is coming out of her. like she's trying to say i wont succeed because i done wrong by her, and didnt do what she wants....she's kind of trying to psyche me out that i might think im doing well but i wont ...when i was (she's calling down all this superstituous bad luck and god, for past few days). the tone of her voice is bitter and anger. she wants to get some retribution out of seeing me not do well
ive never done anything wrong only study, and thats wrong by her
and tbh, i feel like cutting myself or suicidal, cos she's making me stop working again, and sections in my work have droped to jibberish.
please help, cos at this moment im really trying hard to think of ways i can escape this situation, id rather die....she's lectured me since last wed/thurs. repeating this and saying it with a '''oh you get it, ill make sure of it'''' and sniggering when she puts me down and sniggers when she sees me going down again....
saying things like, an academic is no better than a binman etc. making me feel worthless
i really need someone stronger to help me, with her
its blocking my ability to completely focus, cos she's making me fear that im not going to complete, im cutting out again and writing fragmentedly
need sumone to help me ... breaking down again
my mom has been really going at me since the weekend since i was positive and things were going well
She keeps threatening that people who do wrong will fail, with the implication that im doing wrong when im not.
the anger is coming out of her. like she's trying to say i wont succeed because i done wrong by her, and didnt do what she wants....she's kind of trying to psyche me out that i might think im doing well but i wont ...when i was (she's calling down all this superstituous bad luck and god, for past few days). the tone of her voice is bitter and anger. she wants to get some retribution out of seeing me not do well
ive never done anything wrong only study, and thats wrong by her
and tbh, i feel like cutting myself or suicidal, cos she's making me stop working again, and sections in my work have droped to jibberish.
please help, cos at this moment im really trying hard to think of ways i can escape this situation, id rather die....she's lectured me since last wed/thurs. repeating this and saying it with a '''oh you get it, ill make sure of it'''' and sniggering when she puts me down and sniggers when she sees me going down again....
saying things like, an academic is no better than a binman etc. making me feel worthless
i really need someone stronger to help me, with her
its blocking my ability to completely focus, cos she's making me fear that im not going to complete, im cutting out again and writing fragmentedly