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chrism
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I wasn't sure if I should put this post in 'loneliness' section or in 'general'. I don't feel extremely lonely about this thought but I have to admit that I am saddened by it.
Last school break I went home to my parent's house. I had a great time but I got to realize how long I have been gone and how massively I have changed over the years of being apart from them. Being Asian and Christian (I'm not generalizing) I grew up in a well-sheltered and values-instilled surrounding. Living alone I've wandered and thought of things beyond the values and learnings my parents and religion have brought me up with. I am not throwing away the things I grew up believing but I am making new principles for myself, new beliefs, new ideology. It's part of having a life for yourself and part of growing up. But my parents felt that I was growing apart and drifting away from them. I feel sad about it because I've always thought they trust me completely and know me better than anyone else to know that I will always try to make a good life for myself, keeping my principles in mind and the things I stand for. I've learned my mistakes and I think so did my parents. All is ok at the moment. But right now, I feel like I'm being choked with their beliefs and their expectations from me. I think part of being a good parent is the ability to give your children the right to make mistakes and learn from it. To explore on their own and make their own principles in life. Also, to have the right to fight for what they believe in. I know my parents will always want the best for me and I know they're doing what they think is right. I still wouldn't trade them for anything but I don't think they are giving me those rights. Now I have to choose between being a good daughter or fight for my own beliefs (the later will surely hurt them)
Last school break I went home to my parent's house. I had a great time but I got to realize how long I have been gone and how massively I have changed over the years of being apart from them. Being Asian and Christian (I'm not generalizing) I grew up in a well-sheltered and values-instilled surrounding. Living alone I've wandered and thought of things beyond the values and learnings my parents and religion have brought me up with. I am not throwing away the things I grew up believing but I am making new principles for myself, new beliefs, new ideology. It's part of having a life for yourself and part of growing up. But my parents felt that I was growing apart and drifting away from them. I feel sad about it because I've always thought they trust me completely and know me better than anyone else to know that I will always try to make a good life for myself, keeping my principles in mind and the things I stand for. I've learned my mistakes and I think so did my parents. All is ok at the moment. But right now, I feel like I'm being choked with their beliefs and their expectations from me. I think part of being a good parent is the ability to give your children the right to make mistakes and learn from it. To explore on their own and make their own principles in life. Also, to have the right to fight for what they believe in. I know my parents will always want the best for me and I know they're doing what they think is right. I still wouldn't trade them for anything but I don't think they are giving me those rights. Now I have to choose between being a good daughter or fight for my own beliefs (the later will surely hurt them)