Caroline
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I went out with my boyfriend for 8 months, longest relationship I've ever had. We broke up a few weeks ago cuz things got complicated. Well, things have always been a little hard for us anyway, since he lives in New Jersey, and me in New York. Seeing each other wasn't the problem though. In our relationship, we both knew that HE was the one who was in love. I simply just loved him a lot. That always took a toll on him, I guess. But we made it work.
I guess it's stupid, but we broke up because I got jealous over something, and I would never really let him go out without me. I know on my part, that was bad, but I didn't really realize I was doing it. I dunno. Me and him have broken up before, and gotten back together, but this time, it was official. We even talked about getting back together in 2 years, maybe. But I'm so lonely right now, I have nobody to talk to, to hang out with, nobody at all.
I guess what I'm thinking now is...do I get back with him? He's what I know, I'm comfortable with him, he's in love with me, everything. Even though I'm not in love and I doubt I ever will be, he's been really great to me. And I doubt I'll ever find someone like him. :\ OR, do I just forget about him completely and try to move on? Believe me, I've tried so hard not to think about him, and for a while it's been working, but I can't lie to myself any longer. I'm unhappy and lonely, and I might want to be with him again. T~T
Another issue here was that for a while, I was bent on dropping out of high school. I really couldn't take it anymore. My boyfriend was happy that I wouldn't have to deal with school anymore, cuz he saw how my then best friend had ruined me a little. But that's a different story. One day, I had a revelation. I really didn't wanna drop out of school. I'd rather just transfer to another school than have to deal with the one I'm currently in. So I told him this, and he said that he didn't really want me to go to a new school cuz he was worried that I'd find another guy and fall in love with him or something...but like I said, I doubt I'm ever gonna fall in love, or meet another guy like him.
I don't know what to do, I'm leaning towards getting back with him, no matter the complications, but I know everyone around me (like my mom, brother, cousins, etc.) are gonna be disappointed or something. >.<!!! somebody help me...
I guess it's stupid, but we broke up because I got jealous over something, and I would never really let him go out without me. I know on my part, that was bad, but I didn't really realize I was doing it. I dunno. Me and him have broken up before, and gotten back together, but this time, it was official. We even talked about getting back together in 2 years, maybe. But I'm so lonely right now, I have nobody to talk to, to hang out with, nobody at all.
I guess what I'm thinking now is...do I get back with him? He's what I know, I'm comfortable with him, he's in love with me, everything. Even though I'm not in love and I doubt I ever will be, he's been really great to me. And I doubt I'll ever find someone like him. :\ OR, do I just forget about him completely and try to move on? Believe me, I've tried so hard not to think about him, and for a while it's been working, but I can't lie to myself any longer. I'm unhappy and lonely, and I might want to be with him again. T~T
Another issue here was that for a while, I was bent on dropping out of high school. I really couldn't take it anymore. My boyfriend was happy that I wouldn't have to deal with school anymore, cuz he saw how my then best friend had ruined me a little. But that's a different story. One day, I had a revelation. I really didn't wanna drop out of school. I'd rather just transfer to another school than have to deal with the one I'm currently in. So I told him this, and he said that he didn't really want me to go to a new school cuz he was worried that I'd find another guy and fall in love with him or something...but like I said, I doubt I'm ever gonna fall in love, or meet another guy like him.
I don't know what to do, I'm leaning towards getting back with him, no matter the complications, but I know everyone around me (like my mom, brother, cousins, etc.) are gonna be disappointed or something. >.<!!! somebody help me...