Silvernight
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Only entirely platonic. Anyone get that impression? It hurts to be dumped or forgotten by someone you considered your best friend no less than by a girlfriend/boyfriend. I was best friends with this girl at university, kindred souls you might say, and although we graduated about four years ago, we still used to get in touch regularly. We used to write to each other every month or so and occasionally I came over to her place. We still sometimes get in touch... but very rarely and the initiative is all mine. I don't try to get in touch more often than once in a few months as I don't want to annoy her. And maybe four times out of five those messages get ignored. I understand perfectly well that she may not be using skype at the same time but just any kind of later acknowledgement that she got that message would be nice. Alas, not to be. This was never the case when we were students.
Honestly, I just can't believe how pathetic I can be in this regard. She probably doesn't even give me any thought, yet I remember her and the good times we had together every day. This is why I say it is rather much like a love affair. It's horribly pathetic but I can't forget her, not really. Probably doesn't help that I basically have no other friends left either and very little ideas on how to get new ones. And by friend I mean a meaningful relationship instead of hi/bye or sharing a couple of words about some random topic. I was always content to have few friends as long as we really 'got' each other. But now it seems pretty much impossible and miracles are so very very rare. Even if you meet someone you could be really good friends with, they usually already have their own circle and have no need to form close friendships with anyone else.
This was a bit random I suppose but I just needed to say it. I felt so after reading one of my former university friend's blog. She's got the same issue, only she married an Australian guy with whom they met on skype and now lives in Australia. And unlike me she isn't even remotely shy or otherwise handicapped in terms of socializing, although she lives in a foreign country.
Hope you forgive me for boring you with my tirades
Honestly, I just can't believe how pathetic I can be in this regard. She probably doesn't even give me any thought, yet I remember her and the good times we had together every day. This is why I say it is rather much like a love affair. It's horribly pathetic but I can't forget her, not really. Probably doesn't help that I basically have no other friends left either and very little ideas on how to get new ones. And by friend I mean a meaningful relationship instead of hi/bye or sharing a couple of words about some random topic. I was always content to have few friends as long as we really 'got' each other. But now it seems pretty much impossible and miracles are so very very rare. Even if you meet someone you could be really good friends with, they usually already have their own circle and have no need to form close friendships with anyone else.
This was a bit random I suppose but I just needed to say it. I felt so after reading one of my former university friend's blog. She's got the same issue, only she married an Australian guy with whom they met on skype and now lives in Australia. And unlike me she isn't even remotely shy or otherwise handicapped in terms of socializing, although she lives in a foreign country.
Hope you forgive me for boring you with my tirades