Yabai.Youth
Well-known member
Hi guys;
I've been having some problems lately. Some relationship problems. I'm not sure if I should be writing this thread. Basically, I'm not sure if I have Borderline Personality Disorder, or atleast some other problem.
Anyways, I've always felt unloved, like everybody hates me. Despite the fact that my parents and my closest friend is constantly reassuring me, I never seem to "get it". Because of this I try my best to please everyone, and when I am unable to do so, I get really hurt. For some reason, I only seem receptive to criticism and never to love. This has always been since I can remember. I can remember as a youth constantly seeking my parents approval.
I have a history of alcohol abuse and self harm in order to numb myself from rejection. Especially rejection of someone I loved very very much. This person I've known them since I was a child, and I always looked up to them. I always wanted to grow up just like them, I always wanted to be a part of their life. Since the realization that they do not want me as a part of their life, I have been turning to self harm, more and more to knumb the emotions.
To top it off, I have these wild fluctuating moods. I think all the way untill 3:00 p.m I was extremly depressed, and now I'm feeling fine and telling myself "Nothing's the problem, your happy so therefore your fine".
I'm sorry if this is really vauge, but I'm not used to expressing myself. I'm already taking something for depression. Is this "normal" or is it something I should see a professional for?
Thanks everybody.
I've been having some problems lately. Some relationship problems. I'm not sure if I should be writing this thread. Basically, I'm not sure if I have Borderline Personality Disorder, or atleast some other problem.
Anyways, I've always felt unloved, like everybody hates me. Despite the fact that my parents and my closest friend is constantly reassuring me, I never seem to "get it". Because of this I try my best to please everyone, and when I am unable to do so, I get really hurt. For some reason, I only seem receptive to criticism and never to love. This has always been since I can remember. I can remember as a youth constantly seeking my parents approval.
I have a history of alcohol abuse and self harm in order to numb myself from rejection. Especially rejection of someone I loved very very much. This person I've known them since I was a child, and I always looked up to them. I always wanted to grow up just like them, I always wanted to be a part of their life. Since the realization that they do not want me as a part of their life, I have been turning to self harm, more and more to knumb the emotions.
To top it off, I have these wild fluctuating moods. I think all the way untill 3:00 p.m I was extremly depressed, and now I'm feeling fine and telling myself "Nothing's the problem, your happy so therefore your fine".
I'm sorry if this is really vauge, but I'm not used to expressing myself. I'm already taking something for depression. Is this "normal" or is it something I should see a professional for?
Thanks everybody.