Bluebird
Active member
I'm apologizing in advance, just in case this ends up being a venting session.
I've never been very good at having close relationships (in general, not necessarily romantic). I don't know what it is about me, but I just can't make connections with anyone. In the end, I always wind up feeling hurt or left behind. I can count on one hand the number of people I've been able to confide in over my whole lifetime, and all but one are family members. I always believed my family was close, and that we would always have each other for support. I had a happy childhood. There was a point in time when we reached a rough patch, on my account, but worked through it.
Since we graduated high school, I believed my sister and I grew close as siblings and even as friends. Throughout that time she was dating and is now engaged to the same guy. The first couple years he was very sweet to her and was always trying to be friendly and helpful to our parents. But as time progressed, his attitude and demeanor changed toward us (as in my family, not my sister). He is cold and distant, will not even enter the house to say hello, and has shown complete disrespect on the few encounters we've had. He won't even look me in the face when he talks. I never said or did anything to him. How could I, since I've never had a single conversation with him that lasted more than two minutes. My sister has always kept her relationship with him and with the family separate.
I'm not going to be really specific on what happened, but a couple months ago my parents voiced an opinion on a single issue. I was witness to the conversation and it was in no way offensive - they were only concerned with my sister's safety. He didn't like the fact they said anything and it caused problems. A few weeks later, I find out my sister and her fiance bought a home and are moving far away. I can't say I was surprised by his actions, but I was surprised by my sister's. She was completely secretive about the whole thing and purchased it on impulse. It's been months and she refuses to discuss it. From what she did say, she did not consider us at all when making the decision and regrets the way she handled it. But she still won't include us even now. His family has been out to see the property more than once and he even had the nerve to post pictures on Facebook. All I know is the name of the city it's in. And though I've asked, I still did not receive an invitation out there.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is why can't I even keep up a relationship with my own sister? I don't expect her to live right next door. It's not even the distance. It's just that I believed we were close, yet she would make a decision like that without even letting me know. It's hard enough that she's getting married and moving out, but she's so closed off now. We would always have fun spending time together. I don't want to be shut out. Her fiance doesn't like me at all, and she won't say anything when he is rude or disrespectful because she wants to "keep the peace". I feel betrayed by this. Am I wrong for feeling this way? I've never said anything to her about his actions all this time, until this happened. She makes excuses.
It seems like every time someone in my life leaves, my world gets a little smaller. I hate feeling lonely! I hate always being alone! I want to be happy for her, but I feel sad for me. Why is it that just because she is getting married, we have to become distant relatives? When we were young we would look at our parents' relationships with their siblings (since they had similar issues) and say, "We're never gonna be that way." I guess we were wrong.
I've never been very good at having close relationships (in general, not necessarily romantic). I don't know what it is about me, but I just can't make connections with anyone. In the end, I always wind up feeling hurt or left behind. I can count on one hand the number of people I've been able to confide in over my whole lifetime, and all but one are family members. I always believed my family was close, and that we would always have each other for support. I had a happy childhood. There was a point in time when we reached a rough patch, on my account, but worked through it.
Since we graduated high school, I believed my sister and I grew close as siblings and even as friends. Throughout that time she was dating and is now engaged to the same guy. The first couple years he was very sweet to her and was always trying to be friendly and helpful to our parents. But as time progressed, his attitude and demeanor changed toward us (as in my family, not my sister). He is cold and distant, will not even enter the house to say hello, and has shown complete disrespect on the few encounters we've had. He won't even look me in the face when he talks. I never said or did anything to him. How could I, since I've never had a single conversation with him that lasted more than two minutes. My sister has always kept her relationship with him and with the family separate.
I'm not going to be really specific on what happened, but a couple months ago my parents voiced an opinion on a single issue. I was witness to the conversation and it was in no way offensive - they were only concerned with my sister's safety. He didn't like the fact they said anything and it caused problems. A few weeks later, I find out my sister and her fiance bought a home and are moving far away. I can't say I was surprised by his actions, but I was surprised by my sister's. She was completely secretive about the whole thing and purchased it on impulse. It's been months and she refuses to discuss it. From what she did say, she did not consider us at all when making the decision and regrets the way she handled it. But she still won't include us even now. His family has been out to see the property more than once and he even had the nerve to post pictures on Facebook. All I know is the name of the city it's in. And though I've asked, I still did not receive an invitation out there.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is why can't I even keep up a relationship with my own sister? I don't expect her to live right next door. It's not even the distance. It's just that I believed we were close, yet she would make a decision like that without even letting me know. It's hard enough that she's getting married and moving out, but she's so closed off now. We would always have fun spending time together. I don't want to be shut out. Her fiance doesn't like me at all, and she won't say anything when he is rude or disrespectful because she wants to "keep the peace". I feel betrayed by this. Am I wrong for feeling this way? I've never said anything to her about his actions all this time, until this happened. She makes excuses.
It seems like every time someone in my life leaves, my world gets a little smaller. I hate feeling lonely! I hate always being alone! I want to be happy for her, but I feel sad for me. Why is it that just because she is getting married, we have to become distant relatives? When we were young we would look at our parents' relationships with their siblings (since they had similar issues) and say, "We're never gonna be that way." I guess we were wrong.