Firstly I know people have bigger issues than me but throughout my entire life my emotions have been treated like a toy and its officially made me completely depressed. I am so down now that I feel like crying all the time. I avoid going to university because I have lost all self confidence with people. I always think people are judging me, I avoid getting close because of how people have treated me in the past. In the last year I have made three friends and fell in love once, all people since have completely dumped me, without a word or an explanation. They simply have enough friends and don't need another one - or they get a bf and leave me behind. I'm also gay, I can talk to no one about this cause I was brought up in a Christian family and to a large extent all my many acquaintances would complete disown me.
I have tried finding myself - I have done everything from clubbing, university groups, online and existing acquaintances and yet I can't seem to find anyone and when I do they really hurt me - it happens over and over again. On the outside I generally act like I've got it together, I'm extremely friendly and nice to people and I seem to get taken advantage of for it.
I don't know - maybe I'm just not meant to have friends or find love. It just hurts and the worst part is no one cares in the slightest even people I have known for years.
I have tried finding myself - I have done everything from clubbing, university groups, online and existing acquaintances and yet I can't seem to find anyone and when I do they really hurt me - it happens over and over again. On the outside I generally act like I've got it together, I'm extremely friendly and nice to people and I seem to get taken advantage of for it.
I don't know - maybe I'm just not meant to have friends or find love. It just hurts and the worst part is no one cares in the slightest even people I have known for years.