Dominator88
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Hey, Im assuming you say things about your personal problems here so here I go :club:. I have been lonely for the best years of my life I guess you could say, from 15 until now, I only have 3 friends and only one of them is close and even then not so close. I used to be one of those guys always obsessed with being fit, used to have a muscular body but looks don't mean anything, I never had many friends in high school, never knew how to talk to girls so well and I know some were interested in my back then. Now Im 21, lost that muscular body when I was 18. I don't know why, I always feel sad or sorta down when I don't get any sleep in 24 hours, its weird I wake up and feel fine. Generally I have never been depressed about my situation but I do get sad sometimes. Just wanna focus one what I need for my life now a job and to do well when I start university, got in College 2 years ago but didn't wanna go, now im In a University program Im interested in PoliticalScience/History, even going to do summer sessions in University so I finish when Im 24 which isn't much older then when most people finish a BA which is usually 21,22 or 23. As for Career choice I would see what I wanna do after my degree, see if I get in Law School or anything else, if I find nothing then I will become a Police Officer, always been interested in that. Just hope my non-criminal record doesn't affect that, got in some stupid situation with a family member, long story short peace bonde signed no criminal conviction but if they do a Police records check it says I would have an arrest I believe.
I was thinking of volunteering to do some community service at a church food bank, would be good experience for my resume and even if I have a job. I can deal with not having many friends, all i really want is a girlfriend, I have been talking to some girls recently. All met on the internet sadly, haha. One is in my city we talked on Skype, she is beautiful 5'9 body like a model half irish/half Portuguese tan skin and green eyes but Im not so sure if I actually like her, she likes to tease and say naughty things on skype, done enough naughty things for her on webcam and I don't mind doing that sometimes if there not recording or screenshotting me. I know she acts nothing like this in person, her pictures on facebook don't have any piss drunk photos or anything revealing/sluty looking. I don't even see her online much anyway, so nothing would come of it even though she asked me to meet up and go out for a coffee sometime. Its pathetic! Im 21 and don't even have a car or a g1 written test license! I wrote it before and got 15/20, you need at least 16/20 to pass, I failed because I studied unaware that the out of date tests I was practicing with on the net were old and the updated license book had new info in it. This girls father is a Supreme Court Judge in Canada and she drives a BMW he purchased for her after she crashed an Audi (very spoiled), doesn't seem to care so much about money though which is good, wants to be a elementry school teacher and said to me she just wants a man who knows what he wants to do in life, whatever profession hes going for, just nothing like Mcdics or a job that requires little training.
Just feel that I would be complete if I had a girlfriend, been spending time on dating sites, I just feel better using those then meeting girls in person and getting there number that just seems so random.
My Lack of motivation is affecting me, I need to get out there and try hard to get a job, Im noticing that writing helps, maybe I should keep a Journal.
Well that is the state of my most exquisite existence along with its most recent details in a nutshell, read it if you want.
I was thinking of volunteering to do some community service at a church food bank, would be good experience for my resume and even if I have a job. I can deal with not having many friends, all i really want is a girlfriend, I have been talking to some girls recently. All met on the internet sadly, haha. One is in my city we talked on Skype, she is beautiful 5'9 body like a model half irish/half Portuguese tan skin and green eyes but Im not so sure if I actually like her, she likes to tease and say naughty things on skype, done enough naughty things for her on webcam and I don't mind doing that sometimes if there not recording or screenshotting me. I know she acts nothing like this in person, her pictures on facebook don't have any piss drunk photos or anything revealing/sluty looking. I don't even see her online much anyway, so nothing would come of it even though she asked me to meet up and go out for a coffee sometime. Its pathetic! Im 21 and don't even have a car or a g1 written test license! I wrote it before and got 15/20, you need at least 16/20 to pass, I failed because I studied unaware that the out of date tests I was practicing with on the net were old and the updated license book had new info in it. This girls father is a Supreme Court Judge in Canada and she drives a BMW he purchased for her after she crashed an Audi (very spoiled), doesn't seem to care so much about money though which is good, wants to be a elementry school teacher and said to me she just wants a man who knows what he wants to do in life, whatever profession hes going for, just nothing like Mcdics or a job that requires little training.
Just feel that I would be complete if I had a girlfriend, been spending time on dating sites, I just feel better using those then meeting girls in person and getting there number that just seems so random.
My Lack of motivation is affecting me, I need to get out there and try hard to get a job, Im noticing that writing helps, maybe I should keep a Journal.
Well that is the state of my most exquisite existence along with its most recent details in a nutshell, read it if you want.
