A Desolate Soul
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Someone who i thought was one of my best friends turned her back on me. This girl was someone i always had strong feelings for, but unfortunately she rejected my feelings. I probably should of stopped talking to her from there, but in all fairness we were friends before anything. Anywho, recently she got a new boyfriend and me and him don't exactly see eye-to-eye (he's a complete ****** bag). For the most part, i was fine with it because i was slowly getting adjusted to the idea of us not being together.
So one day i decided to leave a friendly little "I miss you" type of quote on her facebook page because we don't get to see or talk to each other often since she works all the time. Long story short, her insecure ***** of a boyfriend saw it and started a lot of drama over it. Her boyfriend basically put her in a position to choose between me and him. She asked me to "tone it down" for a bit and not do things that would start drama anymore. Seriously? WTF? The irony of that statement. i refuse to be told what kind of friend i can be especially if i'm suppose to be one of her best friends. I also told her that she's being completely biased because of him but she denies it. This is stupid high school drama that shouldn't concern me at all and i happened to get thrown in the middle. She said she didn't choose sides but i know she chose his. We haven't said anything to each other in over a week. If i knew something like this was going to happen, i would of not even bothered being her friend.
So now here i am, about 2:30am nonstop thinking and it's been like this for the past few nights. I already had trust issues with people to begin with so when one of my own best friends turns their back on me, i feel like i really can't trust anyone. I only feel a combination of sadness, anger, abandoned, betrayed, and hatred. i just wish i could feel indifferent, but i can't. I'm not a clingy person at all, but I really hate when my friends get bfs/gfs because they get so caught up in their own little world that they ignore their friends. It just sucks that someone who you've known for so long and gone through so much stuff with can just toss you aside like trash. It really makes you feel worthless...
thoughts anyone?
So one day i decided to leave a friendly little "I miss you" type of quote on her facebook page because we don't get to see or talk to each other often since she works all the time. Long story short, her insecure ***** of a boyfriend saw it and started a lot of drama over it. Her boyfriend basically put her in a position to choose between me and him. She asked me to "tone it down" for a bit and not do things that would start drama anymore. Seriously? WTF? The irony of that statement. i refuse to be told what kind of friend i can be especially if i'm suppose to be one of her best friends. I also told her that she's being completely biased because of him but she denies it. This is stupid high school drama that shouldn't concern me at all and i happened to get thrown in the middle. She said she didn't choose sides but i know she chose his. We haven't said anything to each other in over a week. If i knew something like this was going to happen, i would of not even bothered being her friend.
So now here i am, about 2:30am nonstop thinking and it's been like this for the past few nights. I already had trust issues with people to begin with so when one of my own best friends turns their back on me, i feel like i really can't trust anyone. I only feel a combination of sadness, anger, abandoned, betrayed, and hatred. i just wish i could feel indifferent, but i can't. I'm not a clingy person at all, but I really hate when my friends get bfs/gfs because they get so caught up in their own little world that they ignore their friends. It just sucks that someone who you've known for so long and gone through so much stuff with can just toss you aside like trash. It really makes you feel worthless...
thoughts anyone?