i'm 20 ******* years old.
some guys tell me i'm pretty, some say i'm not (not to my face), so i dont know where i stand on the attractiveness scale.
my personality is weird. i'm cool with most people, but around guys, i cant make eye contact, i start to walk funny, i talk funny, my lisp gets more noticeable, i just become this awkward piece of honeysuckle.
i've NEVER had anything CLOSE to a boyfriend. EVER.
not even a close guy friend.
well, there was this one guy, and he took me out and we hugged a lot and he randomly stopped speaking to me. i acted really weird around him. i acted bored and uninterested, but only because i wanted to push him away because i knew he thought i was weird. he said so himself. i asked him. "do you think i'm weird?" "a little" so...yeah.
wtf? im so ******* frustrated. i mean, i didnt care before, but i do now. i want someone to be with now. ever since i turned 20, i've been worried about my love life....it doesnt even exist. and im so ANGRY and upset and sad and worried and i feel so left out. i havent lived life to the fullest. not at all.
some guys tell me i'm pretty, some say i'm not (not to my face), so i dont know where i stand on the attractiveness scale.
my personality is weird. i'm cool with most people, but around guys, i cant make eye contact, i start to walk funny, i talk funny, my lisp gets more noticeable, i just become this awkward piece of honeysuckle.
i've NEVER had anything CLOSE to a boyfriend. EVER.
not even a close guy friend.
well, there was this one guy, and he took me out and we hugged a lot and he randomly stopped speaking to me. i acted really weird around him. i acted bored and uninterested, but only because i wanted to push him away because i knew he thought i was weird. he said so himself. i asked him. "do you think i'm weird?" "a little" so...yeah.
wtf? im so ******* frustrated. i mean, i didnt care before, but i do now. i want someone to be with now. ever since i turned 20, i've been worried about my love life....it doesnt even exist. and im so ANGRY and upset and sad and worried and i feel so left out. i havent lived life to the fullest. not at all.