sentimentality
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Well, here I am. I’m glad I have found something like this where I can give and get support to/from other people. I feel like I have entered the darkest period of loneliness ever. I really want to succeed but it is really hard. I don’t have any friends that I can call up or hang out with on the weekends. I sleep every weekend, and watch TV every weekend. That’s all. I constantly think about what I want my life to be and how it can be and how it could have been. I can't take it.
Also there’s a guy, I have liked since freshman year. He’s a senior now and I guess that is really part of my sadness. I don’t understand why we can’t be together. I don’t understand why he’s afraid. We do nothing but stare at each other. Part of me is afraid too. But most of me does want let it all out. I tried to. Finally. I mean he already knew from his sophomore year that I liked him me telling him. Now it was coming from me not someone else. Almost 2 years later. I know its shame. My shyness. Has gotten in they way so many times and I’m ready to tell him I’m over all that. I think I just scared him away.
Another part of me is beginning to give up. It all seems impossible now. I wasted time. It hurts to look at him but it also makes me smile. I really should move on.
Also there’s a guy, I have liked since freshman year. He’s a senior now and I guess that is really part of my sadness. I don’t understand why we can’t be together. I don’t understand why he’s afraid. We do nothing but stare at each other. Part of me is afraid too. But most of me does want let it all out. I tried to. Finally. I mean he already knew from his sophomore year that I liked him me telling him. Now it was coming from me not someone else. Almost 2 years later. I know its shame. My shyness. Has gotten in they way so many times and I’m ready to tell him I’m over all that. I think I just scared him away.
Another part of me is beginning to give up. It all seems impossible now. I wasted time. It hurts to look at him but it also makes me smile. I really should move on.