Castaway
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I haven't been real sure what I should post about myself, obviously I am not here because I have great social skills. I just want to know I am not alone in feeling like an outcast, loner, alien etc.
Let me say more about myself and if this is not the right place for me I will move on to somewhere else.
I am in my early 40s, Bi-sexual male and have always had a hard time getting and keeping friends. Used to drink a lot, but stopped a year ago on my own. Don't go to AA because that's a social event and I hate it.
I have always felt like an outcast or some sort of an alien from another planet.
As a child I was sexually and physically abused. In my early 20s I was raped. Sometimes I feel like maybe that's why I am here, to be used and thrown away.
The other night I forced myself to meet someone, without being drunk or wanting sex. I just wanted a friendship. I don't think it went well. To many silences and awkward moments.
Why can't I just be normal? Why am I so strange? Why do I look at things that others look at differently? I just want a friend who cares about me, someone who likes me because I am who I am. I am not sure that will ever happen.
Let me say more about myself and if this is not the right place for me I will move on to somewhere else.
I am in my early 40s, Bi-sexual male and have always had a hard time getting and keeping friends. Used to drink a lot, but stopped a year ago on my own. Don't go to AA because that's a social event and I hate it.
I have always felt like an outcast or some sort of an alien from another planet.
As a child I was sexually and physically abused. In my early 20s I was raped. Sometimes I feel like maybe that's why I am here, to be used and thrown away.
The other night I forced myself to meet someone, without being drunk or wanting sex. I just wanted a friendship. I don't think it went well. To many silences and awkward moments.
Why can't I just be normal? Why am I so strange? Why do I look at things that others look at differently? I just want a friend who cares about me, someone who likes me because I am who I am. I am not sure that will ever happen.