Scared_of_life
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Hi everybody. I just found this site today and I feel like I really could use some support right now (even if it's from total strangers) and just a place to explain myself without being judged hopefully. I'm 26 and my life couldn't be more of a mess if I tried. I'm going through some serious honeysuckle at the moment and don't have any friends or family to turn to, hence why I'm here. Looking at me you would never guess that I had so many problems right now in my life cos I always put on a smile and I suppose I'm quite an attractive lady and i dress well (try to) so I guess nobody would suspect anything. But in reality I'm living with my mentally ill boyfriend who I have been with for 5 years. However this is not a happy relationship as he's seriously violent to me and controlling to the point where he has no idea how bad he has really been to me. I have been plucking up the courage of leaving him for a long time now cos I don't love him like that anymore but I'm just so scared of life ahead of me. I'd have no where to go, no money (in fact £4000 of debt), no possessions, no friends and no family cos my mums a psycho and my dads a peadophile. But yet in spite of this I'm intelligent, arty and I'm a really caring person. Life just seems so harsh right now as I know I have so much to give and I'm so lonely. Ive always felt like an outsider and have never really 'fitted' in but life just keeps getting harder and harder. All I ever wanted was a family life and to enjoy life but it's just not working out for me. I'm scared I'll never meet anyone again cos ive always found it hard connecting to people as I've always been less confident than other people my age. So there's my intro... Hopefully people will get where I'm at. I'm writing this in my lunchbreak at work so sorry if it doesn't read that well. Thanks