Why?

ramsdekm said:

Hello, My name is Kevin. I am a 40 y/o male living in Iowa. I am married to a wonderful wife, have 2 awesome kids but there is something wrong with me. All my life I have felt alone, before I met my wife of 11 years, I had no friends. I did everything alone..eat, go to movies, sporting events, you name it, I was by myself. Even in high school, I was never invited to parties, never part of a crowd. I desperately wanted to belong. At home growing up, my mother beat me, emotionally and verbally abused me..basically treated me like crap. I was sexually abused as a small child by my babysitter. I showed all the signs of abuse, yet no body did anything to help me. It is hard for me to understand why nobody wanted to take me under their wing and help me. Because of my childhood, I am pretty much a 5 year old living in an adults body. My wife struggles to understand why I am different. I am currently starting therapy in hopes to get past my trauma and maybe have a semi normal life. I am in hopes of making some friends..something I desperately need. Thanks

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