I feel the same when I was still single. At that time, I think of what really is the meaning of life. I wanted to be "HAPPY", but how that "HAPPINES" could be attained?
So I did things that I think could make me happy such as buying anything I want such drink this, eat that, having dates, go out and have fun, etc.. But afterwards, when all those enjoyments subsided, still I am empty, and I want more which is I do not know what is it, then I ended up doing the same things to satisfy myself. So therefore same result arrived, as if I went back to zero. So yah its humiliating when you met some relatives or ex's or close friends and asked same questions. As if you don't like to go home and just hide so that you will never encounter those questions.
With all of this happening to me, suddenly a close friend unseen for years came and he talked about something which is new for me. He portrays logical presentation about "HAPPINES" which is in duality that makes man's existence complete.
That is "EXTERNAL HAPPINESS" through external things (food, shelter, clothes) and is "Temporary Happiness", and "INTERNAL HAPPINESS" which can only be attained through having "RELATIONSHIPS", that is taught and practiced by religions centered on the family.
Since this is "NEW THOUGHT", I tried to study it, and I became happy knowing things that I can apply to my life. Philosophically, I am now walking on the road towards that "HAPPINESS" that everyone (unknowingly) wanted to attain. Please go to "Lovin' Life Ministries" to have more about it.
As Jesus said, "knock and it will be opened unto you, seek and you will find".