i look out of window

every night before going to bed,, i have a glance out of my window
i see the moon in the sky and the stars.
i say "hi,dear,how have u been today, nice to see you again",,and i smile
in return the moon and stars and the night sky give standing ovation to me
they clap for me and cheer for me,,,they smile at me,,,,,u know why?
bcos i have been brave today, bcos i tried

brave for what? tried for what?

brave enuf to face my demons,,,which lay inside me,,my head,,those negative thougths that scare and weaken me,
brave enuf to stand up ,,even when i constantly fear of falling dpwn
brave enuf to atleast try to believe in myself
tried to decide what i want from life
tried to know what i am good at
tried to at least remember my goals and seriously considered to follow them,,even though i never succeeded
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my struggle may not be the same as others, from the horizon,,it may look convenient and easy to others,,but i know i struggle..in my own way,,,to know ,,,to understand my real self,,,my potential...my worth..not to the world,, but my worth in m own eyes.
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its a struggle,,with my own,
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and the moon and the stars and the night sky know it all.

for they have seen me cry in loneliness in muffled voice
they seen me scared bcos i failed
they have seen me ,,,talking to myself,,,assuring myself,,that everything s gonna be fine,, i will be somebody some day
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they know that i am trying!!! in my own small ways
and thats why every night wen i look at them out of my window
the moon and the stars and the night sky....
they give me standing ovation...