At one point I realized that no matter how much I try, no matter how much I hoped for things to even get a little better, they never did. So I stopped hoping for things to get better & just hoped they didn't get worse, but they have. So now I don't hope for anything & I know things will get worse for me. I should just get used to having a terrible life. Maybe I'll get lucky & lose all feeling, becoming numb to my life. But of course, it will most likely not happen. Oh well. I probably won't post anything for a good while on here as I know I have a talent for annoying people. I'll just keep all my feelings to myself as my feelings are quite unimportant to well basically everyone.