IShouldBeStudying
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Hello everybody,
I've recently realized I don't have any real friends and have subsequently been feeling extremely lonely. I thought things had been going really well for me after I enrolled in college three years ago. My second semester I got a job as a natural sciences tutor and made many acquaintances. Eventually I had a group of friends whom I frequently hung out with. The high point came when the director of my department introduced me to the college president as the smartest person he had ever met. For the first time in my life I felt like I belonged.
Last semester I transferred from my small community college to one of America's largest and most prestigious universities. Academically it is everything I ever dreamed it would be. I even felt like I had made friends in each of my courses. We'd do study groups and text about homework problems. It was almost like having my friends from back home.
After the winter break I decided to text everybody to see if they wanted to hang out. The only person who replied was a very attractive girl who had always seemed very friendly. She said "I don't need math help anymore." I was dumb struck. I thought these people were my friends. It made me decide to examine my other relationships and I noticed a disturbing pattern. On the rare occasion somebody contacts me it is only to ask for help or advice. When nobody needs me or I need something I am ignored.
I decided that the best place to make friends would be a place full of other lonely people which is why I am here. It also seems like a place where people could prey on lonely people, but I think it is worth the risk it to try to meet other people I can relate to. This is far more than I ever say about myself, especially my emotions, in real life and I feel rather embarrassed about posting this much about myself. To anybody who has actually read this far: thank you.
I've recently realized I don't have any real friends and have subsequently been feeling extremely lonely. I thought things had been going really well for me after I enrolled in college three years ago. My second semester I got a job as a natural sciences tutor and made many acquaintances. Eventually I had a group of friends whom I frequently hung out with. The high point came when the director of my department introduced me to the college president as the smartest person he had ever met. For the first time in my life I felt like I belonged.
Last semester I transferred from my small community college to one of America's largest and most prestigious universities. Academically it is everything I ever dreamed it would be. I even felt like I had made friends in each of my courses. We'd do study groups and text about homework problems. It was almost like having my friends from back home.
After the winter break I decided to text everybody to see if they wanted to hang out. The only person who replied was a very attractive girl who had always seemed very friendly. She said "I don't need math help anymore." I was dumb struck. I thought these people were my friends. It made me decide to examine my other relationships and I noticed a disturbing pattern. On the rare occasion somebody contacts me it is only to ask for help or advice. When nobody needs me or I need something I am ignored.
I decided that the best place to make friends would be a place full of other lonely people which is why I am here. It also seems like a place where people could prey on lonely people, but I think it is worth the risk it to try to meet other people I can relate to. This is far more than I ever say about myself, especially my emotions, in real life and I feel rather embarrassed about posting this much about myself. To anybody who has actually read this far: thank you.
