Hi all,
Decided to join in after reading some posts after having randomly searched for the word "lonely" on google . I read from one of the thread (forgot which) that it's good to practise becoming yourself even on the net. So I figured, what better place to start than a forum like this?
Having said that, I'm not actually sure what kind of person my real self is. So I'll start with the facts.
I am 19 years old and feeling like I've only been living half of my years. My pastime is spent on the net, TV, playing video games and watching anime. Social life is very, very lacking IMO, since I've skipped school since high school and isolated myself from friends.
In any case, a few years down the road I've realised my mistake and now I have to pay the price by struggling with loneliness, low self-esteem and not knowing what to say most of the time in social situations. I just feel lost, like I have no place in this world except for my own little home. Figures, since never ventured out to find it for myself. (hmm, need to stop this self-pity thing too)
So yeah, I'm starting college soon and getting quite nervous on being thrust into the big bad world. My lack of social skills is a worry as well as my insecurity about my spoken English (I moved from an Asian country to an English-speaking one) I find myself wishing that I have a circle of friends that are able to support me one way or another as I struggle to "toughen up" and become a more confident and able person. I hope you'll be kind enough to help me and that I may also be of help to other members =)
Was thinking of writing more about my life story, but...I'll take it one step at a time. For now, a short(ish) introduction.
I tend to babble on and get carried away into different topics but I'll try to behave and stop myself
Decided to join in after reading some posts after having randomly searched for the word "lonely" on google . I read from one of the thread (forgot which) that it's good to practise becoming yourself even on the net. So I figured, what better place to start than a forum like this?
Having said that, I'm not actually sure what kind of person my real self is. So I'll start with the facts.
I am 19 years old and feeling like I've only been living half of my years. My pastime is spent on the net, TV, playing video games and watching anime. Social life is very, very lacking IMO, since I've skipped school since high school and isolated myself from friends.
In any case, a few years down the road I've realised my mistake and now I have to pay the price by struggling with loneliness, low self-esteem and not knowing what to say most of the time in social situations. I just feel lost, like I have no place in this world except for my own little home. Figures, since never ventured out to find it for myself. (hmm, need to stop this self-pity thing too)
So yeah, I'm starting college soon and getting quite nervous on being thrust into the big bad world. My lack of social skills is a worry as well as my insecurity about my spoken English (I moved from an Asian country to an English-speaking one) I find myself wishing that I have a circle of friends that are able to support me one way or another as I struggle to "toughen up" and become a more confident and able person. I hope you'll be kind enough to help me and that I may also be of help to other members =)
Was thinking of writing more about my life story, but...I'll take it one step at a time. For now, a short(ish) introduction.
I tend to babble on and get carried away into different topics but I'll try to behave and stop myself