Hello
I am male
i am 25
I was lonely all of my life. I am not weak. No! I've strong character. Nevertheless I am lonely almost all the time. I'll try to tell my story in this post....
My early school years:
I always was the smallest boy in the class. In addition i've had very slow reaction. Another boys pick on me all the times. And I fought with them all the time. I did not have friends at all.
IN nxt years i'd gain strange disease. shutters of my eyes closed and I could open them only with my fingers. It made my very interactive so I could not found friends. My parents were very poor so they did not find me a doctor so i do now what that disease was even now. so almost all my school years i was alone and did not have nether friends nor girlfriends. it were awful years...
After school i enroll to university but i've the same disease and during first years of studying did not have a friends and girls. I kiss girl first time after i finished second year in university. It occurred in summer. i liked summer because in that time i could looked attractive when i weared black glasses and bond my shutters. In addition in the night my eyes were normal. So when i's 19 i met girl in night club and kissed in first time. She was 10 years older than me. After that during two years i met in night clubs two girls and kissed them. But I never dated because I looks awfully in the day...
when i was 22 i met girl in the another town and we went to the vacation together. There i had a sex first time. But i did not love her and do not want to build relationship. During years of loneliness I read thousands of books so i hate stupid people as her was.
After that i find my first full-time job in newspaper, and fall in love to my boss. She was 10 years older than me, she was married and had 3 doughtier. I did not even hope to date with her but i was happy to see her every day. i was happy every time when i was her especially when she told that I am better than another. So after 3 month of working i became the best journalist in newspaper where worked more than 100 experience journalists... But after one year I understand that she manipulated my. She gave me a lot of work so i had to work all day and all nights, but my wage was two times lower than that of her husband who do nothing.
After that I quit this job and move to capital of my country. There I fall in love to editor in chief of magazine that was competitor of magazine in which i worked. She was incredible girl 4 years older than me. I drunk with her almost every day and she regard me as realy interesting person. But when i told that i want to date her she answer that want that we were just friends...
After a half a year i fell in love to another women that were 6 years older than me, but she did not love me. After another half a year i beceme a friend and after that fell in love to CEO of PR-agensy. But she wanted that we were only friends...
It is not end...a year ago a fell in love to another girl that was 5 years older than me, and her told me now. It was very sad experience. I drank a lot. And thought that i can not love now young girl.... I do not now why.... They are uninteresting for my fully. i have not had during this time male friends too.... I ve never bee happy...
Approximately 2 years ago i decided that girls did not love me because i earned less money than they. So i decided to get U.S. MBA... I studied English, passed exam, spending for this tremendous amount of time, and maybe i'll move to USA next year for studying..... but.... I all the time omens or sex.... (I look VERY well now) but i can not explain her my true story. story of my loneliness and that a always way unhappy... I tell this story only ones to girl that were director of PR-agency. After i told this story she cease to communicate with me because decide that i an not a man and i was weak.... FOr building really good relationship i have to tell my story but that story will make me inattentive. In addition i did not fell anything to any girl for a year.... I communicate with some girls but can not tell them my true story and i do not live them.... I am afraid that i'll be alone always and nobody understand me..... I do not know what to do...... give me advice, please.......
I am male
i am 25
I was lonely all of my life. I am not weak. No! I've strong character. Nevertheless I am lonely almost all the time. I'll try to tell my story in this post....
My early school years:
I always was the smallest boy in the class. In addition i've had very slow reaction. Another boys pick on me all the times. And I fought with them all the time. I did not have friends at all.
IN nxt years i'd gain strange disease. shutters of my eyes closed and I could open them only with my fingers. It made my very interactive so I could not found friends. My parents were very poor so they did not find me a doctor so i do now what that disease was even now. so almost all my school years i was alone and did not have nether friends nor girlfriends. it were awful years...
After school i enroll to university but i've the same disease and during first years of studying did not have a friends and girls. I kiss girl first time after i finished second year in university. It occurred in summer. i liked summer because in that time i could looked attractive when i weared black glasses and bond my shutters. In addition in the night my eyes were normal. So when i's 19 i met girl in night club and kissed in first time. She was 10 years older than me. After that during two years i met in night clubs two girls and kissed them. But I never dated because I looks awfully in the day...
when i was 22 i met girl in the another town and we went to the vacation together. There i had a sex first time. But i did not love her and do not want to build relationship. During years of loneliness I read thousands of books so i hate stupid people as her was.
After that i find my first full-time job in newspaper, and fall in love to my boss. She was 10 years older than me, she was married and had 3 doughtier. I did not even hope to date with her but i was happy to see her every day. i was happy every time when i was her especially when she told that I am better than another. So after 3 month of working i became the best journalist in newspaper where worked more than 100 experience journalists... But after one year I understand that she manipulated my. She gave me a lot of work so i had to work all day and all nights, but my wage was two times lower than that of her husband who do nothing.
After that I quit this job and move to capital of my country. There I fall in love to editor in chief of magazine that was competitor of magazine in which i worked. She was incredible girl 4 years older than me. I drunk with her almost every day and she regard me as realy interesting person. But when i told that i want to date her she answer that want that we were just friends...
After a half a year i fell in love to another women that were 6 years older than me, but she did not love me. After another half a year i beceme a friend and after that fell in love to CEO of PR-agensy. But she wanted that we were only friends...
It is not end...a year ago a fell in love to another girl that was 5 years older than me, and her told me now. It was very sad experience. I drank a lot. And thought that i can not love now young girl.... I do not now why.... They are uninteresting for my fully. i have not had during this time male friends too.... I ve never bee happy...
Approximately 2 years ago i decided that girls did not love me because i earned less money than they. So i decided to get U.S. MBA... I studied English, passed exam, spending for this tremendous amount of time, and maybe i'll move to USA next year for studying..... but.... I all the time omens or sex.... (I look VERY well now) but i can not explain her my true story. story of my loneliness and that a always way unhappy... I tell this story only ones to girl that were director of PR-agency. After i told this story she cease to communicate with me because decide that i an not a man and i was weak.... FOr building really good relationship i have to tell my story but that story will make me inattentive. In addition i did not fell anything to any girl for a year.... I communicate with some girls but can not tell them my true story and i do not live them.... I am afraid that i'll be alone always and nobody understand me..... I do not know what to do...... give me advice, please.......