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i have just found this forum, i just want to tell someone and maybe get some opinion or any input. warning, im just about to type as my mind express's, iv NEVER talked to or told anyone my feelings or thoughts.
Im 24,
i was born and raised in a very poor, unforgiving environment and family, all my life i been treated like a useless thing rather than human.
been around people with limited thinking and vision.
I want to be successful in life, contribute something to humanity before i die. i have a innovative mind and write all my ideas down, i have no sources for getting higher training and education,
i have taught myself programming and basic computer science, thanx to the internet i can view and work with stanford and harvard lectures online FREE (CS50.net and CS75.net FYI).
i dont have any friends, as im always focused on my dreams, and i never find people with the similar passion, and yea i should enjoy and live in the moment but i want to take care of the future too.
i feel lost, i try learning and training everyday, thinking about being one of billion and rather than one in a billion makes me feel like a no body, i dont mean financial success even though being realistic it is aim, but not primary.
iv been trying to do something for 6 years now but there is always something thats brings me back to square one, financial, loss or job, domestic issue, goes on.
today i decided to make a commitment to just go hard, i started a GYM plan, i work on my dreams weather i feel like it or not, i just want this motivational drive to last because it really makes me happy,
i dont have "the good" life, as i now support my whole family, but i dont want to get that in the way of my ONE LIFE, ONE DREAM and i dont want to leave family either as i support them in many ways.
iv had a GF leave me for a "better" and "cooler" guy, im sort of a geek/nerdy guy. we were serious too, i dont know anymore about that side of life.
i want to be a somebody, success.
im all over the place as you probably noticed, im sure there are others like me out there, share your experience, maybe some tips lol
thanks for you time to read all this, really appreciate it.
Im 24,
i was born and raised in a very poor, unforgiving environment and family, all my life i been treated like a useless thing rather than human.
been around people with limited thinking and vision.
I want to be successful in life, contribute something to humanity before i die. i have a innovative mind and write all my ideas down, i have no sources for getting higher training and education,
i have taught myself programming and basic computer science, thanx to the internet i can view and work with stanford and harvard lectures online FREE (CS50.net and CS75.net FYI).
i dont have any friends, as im always focused on my dreams, and i never find people with the similar passion, and yea i should enjoy and live in the moment but i want to take care of the future too.
i feel lost, i try learning and training everyday, thinking about being one of billion and rather than one in a billion makes me feel like a no body, i dont mean financial success even though being realistic it is aim, but not primary.
iv been trying to do something for 6 years now but there is always something thats brings me back to square one, financial, loss or job, domestic issue, goes on.
today i decided to make a commitment to just go hard, i started a GYM plan, i work on my dreams weather i feel like it or not, i just want this motivational drive to last because it really makes me happy,
i dont have "the good" life, as i now support my whole family, but i dont want to get that in the way of my ONE LIFE, ONE DREAM and i dont want to leave family either as i support them in many ways.
iv had a GF leave me for a "better" and "cooler" guy, im sort of a geek/nerdy guy. we were serious too, i dont know anymore about that side of life.
i want to be a somebody, success.
im all over the place as you probably noticed, im sure there are others like me out there, share your experience, maybe some tips lol
thanks for you time to read all this, really appreciate it.