Hello everyone,
So, I'll start with something very obvious. I'm a lonely person.
why?
I push people away, I'm afraid to commit. Afraid that if I let someone come too close to me, then they'll leave me....I've never told this to anyone, but I guess its ok to disclose it here because I can be anonymous.
Second reason, I'm in love...no, actually, I am obsessed with this guy I met over 2 years ago and I can't stop thinking of him. Day, night..every hour, every second this guy haunts my mind. And now, I'm sick of it, I want this feeling to go away, but its so compelling.
hmmm, what else can I add to my awesome list..oh yes, I am very insecure person...about? ..hmm about everything actually, about my looks, my dumb brain...and I can just go on and on.
The wierdest part about me is that I know for a fact that I'm fine. I look fine, I am shapping my career in a steady direction, I'm studying in one of the finest universities, I have the "perfect" parents. I have friends .......but there's something...something thats missing.
Or is it my supid perception that keeps telling me that I don't belong here, I'm an outcast..*sigh*
I may have exaggerated some things. I tend to, especially when I'm bored. Or, I may have made it sound like I'm an imbecile..may be I am ..ANYWAYS
So, why am I here?
I want a buddy who doesn't expect anything from me. Who I can talk to, share my feeling with, say wierd, stupid, crazy things in front of and not have to worry about being judged. I want somebody who cares, somebody who can be my REAL friend? ..I feel wierd sort of demanding a friend especially on the net in front of people who I don't know..but theres gotta be somebody who's confused like me..someone who can put up with my lameness..any takers??
So, I'll start with something very obvious. I'm a lonely person.
why?
I push people away, I'm afraid to commit. Afraid that if I let someone come too close to me, then they'll leave me....I've never told this to anyone, but I guess its ok to disclose it here because I can be anonymous.
Second reason, I'm in love...no, actually, I am obsessed with this guy I met over 2 years ago and I can't stop thinking of him. Day, night..every hour, every second this guy haunts my mind. And now, I'm sick of it, I want this feeling to go away, but its so compelling.
hmmm, what else can I add to my awesome list..oh yes, I am very insecure person...about? ..hmm about everything actually, about my looks, my dumb brain...and I can just go on and on.
The wierdest part about me is that I know for a fact that I'm fine. I look fine, I am shapping my career in a steady direction, I'm studying in one of the finest universities, I have the "perfect" parents. I have friends .......but there's something...something thats missing.
Or is it my supid perception that keeps telling me that I don't belong here, I'm an outcast..*sigh*
I may have exaggerated some things. I tend to, especially when I'm bored. Or, I may have made it sound like I'm an imbecile..may be I am ..ANYWAYS
So, why am I here?
I want a buddy who doesn't expect anything from me. Who I can talk to, share my feeling with, say wierd, stupid, crazy things in front of and not have to worry about being judged. I want somebody who cares, somebody who can be my REAL friend? ..I feel wierd sort of demanding a friend especially on the net in front of people who I don't know..but theres gotta be somebody who's confused like me..someone who can put up with my lameness..any takers??