Greetings guys, I am a 16 year old male with what you might call Life Problems. I am extremely shy and have found the courage to look for a solution that will help me with these "problems".
I have never been talkative in school, throughout my first few years of elementary I never spoke a word, couldn't stand up for myself, couldn't even ask to use the washroom (usually wet myself). after my 4th or 5th year of elementary I started talk a bit more but the only people I could make friends with were the other outcasts. I have about 10 friends maximum in high school. None of my friends are close enough for me to tell my problems in life.
My mother was using drugs and alcohol during her pregnancy and I have found that I am very angry about this, I just recently spilled out my bottled emotions towards her. I am now being tested for any kind of brain damage. My brother is diagnosed with ADHD and FASD, I cry almost 4 times a month just thinking about it. My father on the otherhand has never been there for me. i saw him about 3 times in my life total. He never speaks to me and I feel he doesn't really care. My grandmother is the best relative a got, she raised me, loves me, and I cannot stand the thought of going on in life without her. It makes me cry everytime I think about my grandmother not being there.
I find myself staying up till 4 am thinking about these kinds of things, Im might what you call depressed. Please take this thread seriously, I cannot take anymore judgment or rejection. Thanks
I have never been talkative in school, throughout my first few years of elementary I never spoke a word, couldn't stand up for myself, couldn't even ask to use the washroom (usually wet myself). after my 4th or 5th year of elementary I started talk a bit more but the only people I could make friends with were the other outcasts. I have about 10 friends maximum in high school. None of my friends are close enough for me to tell my problems in life.
My mother was using drugs and alcohol during her pregnancy and I have found that I am very angry about this, I just recently spilled out my bottled emotions towards her. I am now being tested for any kind of brain damage. My brother is diagnosed with ADHD and FASD, I cry almost 4 times a month just thinking about it. My father on the otherhand has never been there for me. i saw him about 3 times in my life total. He never speaks to me and I feel he doesn't really care. My grandmother is the best relative a got, she raised me, loves me, and I cannot stand the thought of going on in life without her. It makes me cry everytime I think about my grandmother not being there.
I find myself staying up till 4 am thinking about these kinds of things, Im might what you call depressed. Please take this thread seriously, I cannot take anymore judgment or rejection. Thanks