xBleedingHeartx
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I couldent get these thoughts out of my head one day, so I tried writing them down and this is what came out. Be brutal.
My Suicide
Why do I try to hate the things I cannot change
when it hurts to remember they'll never go away,
stuck in my head so deceptively gentle, my tears like stencils on the canvas are written,
the pictures of my life
leaving my will to die,
but when I'm gone will my mother cry
make my father look to the sky to ask his god, why?
Will my babies cry what made daddy want to die
why did he have to go when all we needed was him to hold and be told, we're worth more then nothing
worth enough for him to stay alive,
The pains back, I messed up again, and then she's gone forever until no end, there's no way to fix this, no way to win
Just pull the trigger, fall into the abyss, the world doesn't need you anymore, lost in its precipice
we all die one day yes this is true, but is it me or is it you who decides its due time
when a mother looses her child and mourns for her life, what would you say
it was her choice, she took her own life?
I wasn't enough to keep mommy alive, so why should I live when she's done and died? I'll end my suffering on the edge of a blade,
and my suffering will end when my heart has been broken,
How foolish is this, Oh heart made of stone
to pretend you're alone in your sorrow
and will touch no one if you die tonight,
Everything will be ok, one day again, so I cannot let it win
my suicide
My Suicide
Why do I try to hate the things I cannot change
when it hurts to remember they'll never go away,
stuck in my head so deceptively gentle, my tears like stencils on the canvas are written,
the pictures of my life
leaving my will to die,
but when I'm gone will my mother cry
make my father look to the sky to ask his god, why?
Will my babies cry what made daddy want to die
why did he have to go when all we needed was him to hold and be told, we're worth more then nothing
worth enough for him to stay alive,
The pains back, I messed up again, and then she's gone forever until no end, there's no way to fix this, no way to win
Just pull the trigger, fall into the abyss, the world doesn't need you anymore, lost in its precipice
we all die one day yes this is true, but is it me or is it you who decides its due time
when a mother looses her child and mourns for her life, what would you say
it was her choice, she took her own life?
I wasn't enough to keep mommy alive, so why should I live when she's done and died? I'll end my suffering on the edge of a blade,
and my suffering will end when my heart has been broken,
How foolish is this, Oh heart made of stone
to pretend you're alone in your sorrow
and will touch no one if you die tonight,
Everything will be ok, one day again, so I cannot let it win
my suicide
