AliveOrJustBreathing
Member
Hi, everyone. You'll have to bear with me here, I'm never any good at introductions.
Without going too much into my life story...I've always been what you could call a "lone wolf". Always kept to myself, didn't really bother mingling with other people and I've only just begun to realize how much I've actually missed out on in life. I lack friendships. I've never had a girlfriend (well, I had an online one but I don't count that because it wasn't real). This never used to bother me but at 22 years of age I'm going through a bit of a "quarter life crisis" where I've suddenly realized just what I've missed and I've gone into panic mode and now I'm desperate to make up for lost time. I started getting out of the house a bit more. Going places like the gym, swimming pool and a few Art and Creative Writing workshops in the area but I never really meet anyone my own age at these places or anyone I feel I can really connect with. I see people everywhere enjoying the company of their friends and spouses and I keep on wondering what their secret is. I see people who I knew from back in school settling down and getting married and having children which makes me feel REALLY depressed. It's pretty darn frustrating too because I KNOW that when it comes down to it, my life's not that bad. I consider myself fairly intelligent and pretty good looking and I have so much to offer the world. I just tend to hold myself back when it counts, you know? On the occasion that I do come across someone my own age or who I'm interested in, I automatically clam up and retreat into my comfort zone because I'm afraid of rejection, afraid of getting hurt. I've been hurt by a few people before and I didn't enjoy the feeling so it's as if I've wanted to steer away and just try and avoid that feeling completely, and my answer was to shut myself away from the world for the past few years.
Ever since the new year though, I've realized that hiding from life isn't any fun whatsoever. I've gotten bored with the lull I've been stuck in so I'm trying to work on getting out there a bit more and I'm looking to rectify things like not having a girlfriend. I've spent a while looking through the forums as a guest but I've signed up so I can hopefully get to know a few people and maybe offer a bit of input here and there myself.
Anyway...I went on for a little bit longer than I intended to but oh, well. I look forward to posting here and I hope you guys come to accept me
Without going too much into my life story...I've always been what you could call a "lone wolf". Always kept to myself, didn't really bother mingling with other people and I've only just begun to realize how much I've actually missed out on in life. I lack friendships. I've never had a girlfriend (well, I had an online one but I don't count that because it wasn't real). This never used to bother me but at 22 years of age I'm going through a bit of a "quarter life crisis" where I've suddenly realized just what I've missed and I've gone into panic mode and now I'm desperate to make up for lost time. I started getting out of the house a bit more. Going places like the gym, swimming pool and a few Art and Creative Writing workshops in the area but I never really meet anyone my own age at these places or anyone I feel I can really connect with. I see people everywhere enjoying the company of their friends and spouses and I keep on wondering what their secret is. I see people who I knew from back in school settling down and getting married and having children which makes me feel REALLY depressed. It's pretty darn frustrating too because I KNOW that when it comes down to it, my life's not that bad. I consider myself fairly intelligent and pretty good looking and I have so much to offer the world. I just tend to hold myself back when it counts, you know? On the occasion that I do come across someone my own age or who I'm interested in, I automatically clam up and retreat into my comfort zone because I'm afraid of rejection, afraid of getting hurt. I've been hurt by a few people before and I didn't enjoy the feeling so it's as if I've wanted to steer away and just try and avoid that feeling completely, and my answer was to shut myself away from the world for the past few years.
Ever since the new year though, I've realized that hiding from life isn't any fun whatsoever. I've gotten bored with the lull I've been stuck in so I'm trying to work on getting out there a bit more and I'm looking to rectify things like not having a girlfriend. I've spent a while looking through the forums as a guest but I've signed up so I can hopefully get to know a few people and maybe offer a bit of input here and there myself.
Anyway...I went on for a little bit longer than I intended to but oh, well. I look forward to posting here and I hope you guys come to accept me