Hello everyone, I'm Gauche, in life as well as in name. I'm male, I'm 42, and I live near Madison, WI.
I usually gravitate to this type of website when I'm feeling particularly down, look around for a bit and then move on when my mood improves. I hope I can stick around here longer this time, because i really need people like those on this site to talk to. It seems like every social group has it's forum for gathering, whether in real life or online, except for those who suffer social anxieties, so it's nice to find a forum like this. I have to say, that as much as I'd like others to find my socially backward personality more attractive, I have a very hard time finding other socially inhibited people to be interesting or attractive. I don't know how I can love myself when I find it hard to love those who are the most like me. I'm hoping that perhaps this place can provide me with some insight and encouragement, and I'd like nothing more than to be able to offer the same to another.
If there's anything I've learned, it's that we are all so very different, as much as we might identify ourselves as shy, social phobic, or depressed. Many of my friends have similar personalities to mine, shy, quiet, nervous, but for whatever reason they seem comfortable in their own skin. I'm quite the opposite, an extrovert imprisoned by anxiety, someone who wants to live life to the fullest, to dance to the beat of life without fear of what anyone else might think. Who I am inside is not who those around me see or know and nothing could be more soul-crushing in my mind.
I love nothing more than debate and intelligent discussion...let's get it on!
I usually gravitate to this type of website when I'm feeling particularly down, look around for a bit and then move on when my mood improves. I hope I can stick around here longer this time, because i really need people like those on this site to talk to. It seems like every social group has it's forum for gathering, whether in real life or online, except for those who suffer social anxieties, so it's nice to find a forum like this. I have to say, that as much as I'd like others to find my socially backward personality more attractive, I have a very hard time finding other socially inhibited people to be interesting or attractive. I don't know how I can love myself when I find it hard to love those who are the most like me. I'm hoping that perhaps this place can provide me with some insight and encouragement, and I'd like nothing more than to be able to offer the same to another.
If there's anything I've learned, it's that we are all so very different, as much as we might identify ourselves as shy, social phobic, or depressed. Many of my friends have similar personalities to mine, shy, quiet, nervous, but for whatever reason they seem comfortable in their own skin. I'm quite the opposite, an extrovert imprisoned by anxiety, someone who wants to live life to the fullest, to dance to the beat of life without fear of what anyone else might think. Who I am inside is not who those around me see or know and nothing could be more soul-crushing in my mind.
I love nothing more than debate and intelligent discussion...let's get it on!