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Crew99
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I don't get people. I mean no matter what i do and act like it seems like i can't make any friends. The problem really is that i don't go out. I stay home and study online. I have NO friends at all whatsoever. I haven't gone to a regular school in 2 years cause it was just too frustrating to meet people and be there friends. it's like people are just too busy or don't care at all. i cant tell if they're shy or if there's something wrong with me. When i reach out to people they ignore me which only makes me fear reaching out to others again. I'm funny and have an awesome personality and i'm actually attractive. I don't know if it's just bad luck or what but i can't seem to pin point why I can't make friends. The other day I was talking to this girl online and she was really quiet. She said she was shy and blah blah blah and so I tried to open up and keep the conversation going but after awhile she just stopped talking. People tell me to be aggressive or assertive but when i do that i get rejected. When i'm shy people think i'm weird. I don't know how to act anymore. I don't know what to say or be like with others cause i've tried all the different ways of connnecting with someone and it just doesnt seem to work. I go for hours not saying one word and the loneliness is driving me crazy. It gets worst when i hear or see people with their friends, laughing and just having a good time. I want what they have and wish i'd have that someday but when? How do people make friends? i'm not talking about just a casual acquitace, but i mean a REAL friend. Someone who's like your sister you can count on and who'll always be there for..who'll hang out with you and accept you unconditionally. Is there anyone out there who wants to be friends? =)