evanescencefan91 said:
oh God! this happens to me so much, it hurts just reading these posts
Aww, I'm sorry that it has happened to you a lot of times before
*hugs*
It's awful really to go through such things in life..I mean especially when you really see a friend as someone meaningful in your life.
evanescencefan91 said:
Why is it so hard for me to see the truth, saying those things means nothing to them because they say it to everyone.
Yeah, I think this is quite true also with the people I meet. They say a lot of the normal nice things people would say but you can actually tell they're just saying those things for the sake of being nice or just saying it but in reality, they don't really care at all. *shrugs* I could never understand why people are this way though. It would rather be better if most of them who do this do not pretend...hurts the receiver if the receiver can't see their true colours and to find out later on.
evanescencefan91 said:
people get bored of me i think.
I'm sorry if people think this way about you.. but seriously? I've been reading a lot of your posts around here, nothing boring about you. People just don't know how to appreciate the good things in life and always want more. When they want more, they tend to scrap what they already have.
I have been told by a
friend how boring I am lol. And it wasn't even in a joking manner. Ouch, but who cares? Some people may find me boring, some actually find me okay so it differs.
evanescencefan91 said:
But this is what really sucks, i had a friend that i knewsince i was 8 and we were really close but about 6 months ago she just stopped talking to me. She wouldn't invie me over and she would ditch out whenever i tired to hang out. About a month ago i just got up the courage to knock and the door and ask what the hell I even apologised for whatever i did. She said we were still cool, and still friends. I haven't heard from her since, and I tried asking to go to a movie and she just declined. Every friendship I've ever had has ended like this. It has to be me, and I don't know why. I probably start to get to close and it freaks them out.
Have you noticed her hanging around with someone else a lot more often? Perhaps she may have found another friend she preferred to stick with. Although it is quite inconsiderate and selfish of her to push you aside totally. And if it's that obvious to you and her that she's spending less time with you, the least she could do is let you know what's up.
evanescencefan91 said:
I keep thinking about college and how this is just going to happen again, I'll meet new people and make new friends and be happy for a while, but then they'll drop me for some reason, and I'll spend a year and 1/2 being depressed and feeling sorry for myself again.
Despite the depressing college stories I've heard from here and around everywhere else, there's always some bit of it that's good. At least. Even if it's for awhile, you can take that bit of memory with you just to be glad that at least it wasn't so bad. I really hope college life will at least be tolerable for you, if not better
evanescencefan91 said:
maybe i just look for too much meaning in things. When i make a good friend I don't want to just hang out for a year then forget a bout each other.
Well I believe that things happen for a reason. People come into my life for a reason. And they leave me for a reason. Whether the reasons are good or bad, most time I think it's for my best.
evanescencefan91 said:
By the way what the heck is up with boyfriends always cheeting on the girlfriends best friend and vice versa. I'm sorry thats a little off subject, but it's not insanly uncommon.
Right, this is quite common. But I really have got no comments on this one lol..
evanescencefan91 said:
Sometimes I dislike people too. But I don't hate them really. It takes too much of me inside to come up with hatred..too draining for me. I just try to concentrate on what's good most times.
evanescencefan91 said:
sorry for the rant but it felt good to get some of these thought out.
I don't think anyone should be sorry for ranting
I mean if it helps to make you feel better, then that's good.
Well regarding friends and when others stop reaching out, it has happened quite a lot to me too. And then I just leave them be. Used to bother me but I've let that go. It depresses me too much to keep asking why and figuring out why. I guess that's just how people are and I'll accept it as that. Seldom we can find one who's truly a good friend, though I'm always ready to be one to someone. *shrugs*
Lmao look at what I did to your post disecting it
I guess I'm in this mood right now lol