Hey everyone, I posted a few days ago but it wasn't really much of a meaningful post as it was mainly a venting session. Thought I'd remove it as once my thoughts are written down they have a way of putting things into perspective for me.
Alright anyway thought it would be good to chat if anyone is up for it. I am in quite a solitary situation at the minute as it feels I've been doing a few things and ending up in the same old position time and time again. And the people I do go out and see are usually once every few weeks, and I end up with this stupid empty feeling at times where I end up feeling a bit lost for what to do, and that the world is running past me at an epic pace, as if everyone else is having a good time but me!
I feel it would be good to speak to like minded people that can understand. I have a few good friends I see from time to time but when I can't sleep on these nights it can get to me. I usually end up watching random things on youtube or surfing the net until I wear myself out with useless information.
But I've started to get sick of it, not being able to sleep and finding myself idle when really I just lack excitement in my life. A year or so back I had a lot of passion, you know I'd like to make people happy just by being true to them. There's many things I want to do but it's just breaking out of the mold is the trick.
Anyway I have been fairly idle for the past week or so, in terms of doing something productive, but it has reached a point where I had to drop the stress for a while and re-evaluate priorities and what's best for me. Really I just want to chill out, to enjoy what I do and within everyday again, its good though I feel like a lot has been coming off my shoulders and it has opened my eyes to the possibilities of building good new relationships - and when I feel like I could have a good down to earth talk with someone the most nobody is there!
-Lucas
Alright anyway thought it would be good to chat if anyone is up for it. I am in quite a solitary situation at the minute as it feels I've been doing a few things and ending up in the same old position time and time again. And the people I do go out and see are usually once every few weeks, and I end up with this stupid empty feeling at times where I end up feeling a bit lost for what to do, and that the world is running past me at an epic pace, as if everyone else is having a good time but me!
I feel it would be good to speak to like minded people that can understand. I have a few good friends I see from time to time but when I can't sleep on these nights it can get to me. I usually end up watching random things on youtube or surfing the net until I wear myself out with useless information.
But I've started to get sick of it, not being able to sleep and finding myself idle when really I just lack excitement in my life. A year or so back I had a lot of passion, you know I'd like to make people happy just by being true to them. There's many things I want to do but it's just breaking out of the mold is the trick.
Anyway I have been fairly idle for the past week or so, in terms of doing something productive, but it has reached a point where I had to drop the stress for a while and re-evaluate priorities and what's best for me. Really I just want to chill out, to enjoy what I do and within everyday again, its good though I feel like a lot has been coming off my shoulders and it has opened my eyes to the possibilities of building good new relationships - and when I feel like I could have a good down to earth talk with someone the most nobody is there!
-Lucas