StonedHitman
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For about 2 years I've been seriously depressed. I turned 19yo not too long ago, living with my dad and grandma going to a trade school 3 hours a day learning computer repair, but I hate it and want to drop out but i cant because my auntie payed $700 for me to go there and i dont have a job so I cant pay her back. For months I have been looking for a job and I get nothing. But i dont blame them, i have no skills or abilities people are looking for, i cant even work at mcdonalds they just dont bother to call me. It just makes me feel more and more useless. I gave up on job searching. Now i just sit at home playing games and going to that **** school. Everyday is worse than the last. I have suicidal thoughts everyday now. Having no friends doesn't help much but i wouldn't wanna burden others having me as a friend anyways. I think i might just go back to the mental hospital i been going to. Idk what it is about that place that makes me wanna go back. It's like I feel i belong there. Feels nice being around people like me. If only i had the balls to just end it all now. Also, Im sorry for the depressing post, i just had to get that off my chest.