I am hoping anyone that takes the time to read this post will provide me with brute honesty. I am a 36 year old male, I live on my own, have no kids and I’m not in a relationship. I have one possibly two “good” friends but they both have families and one lives well over 30 miles from me. My parents moved to another state and I rarely see or talk to the family members that live within my vicinity.
Several weeks ago I broke up with my girlfriend (I was dumped) after a two year, back & forth relationship. Honestly she was every thing that I could have wished for and much more. She’s beautiful, smart, and has a number of great qualities that I could go on and on about. When I’m with her I feel so ALIVE that it’s almost like I’m on drugs. We had our share of good times and when we were together things were actually great. The problems within our relationship stemmed from my insecurities and my crippling shyness. I was never overbearing but probably way to passive in my approach. If you’ve read any of my previous posts you can read what I’m referring to. This past spring she left me for another guy although she was never completely honest about it. It was not until around July 4 th that she came clean about the other guy but again, not completely. One thing leads to another and we ended up back together by the end of August only to end up breaking up again. I don’t condone what she did behind my back nor am I trying to make any excuses for her behavior. However, if you’re like me and you believe in Newton’s law, I have to take responsibility for my actions that lead to her subsequent actions, if that make any sense.
So, for the past several weeks, again, I’ve been miserable and even contemplate(d) suicide. I feel that the one person that was able to take me out of my shell is no longer there. I have not gone out with the exception of work in the past month. Throughout this past summer, I rarely went out. I never have visitors over my place and there is absolutely nothing exciting about my life. I feel like I have NOTHING to look forward to. To say that I’m “miserable” would be a complete understatement. Meanwhile, I’m sure wherever my ex is; she is surely living her life to the fullest. To make matters worse, this Friday will be her 30 th birthday!!!
Friends, what should I do? The last time I reached out to her three weeks ago she never responded. I have no clue if she now in another relationship. I know you guys will think I need to get out more and start seeing other people but I feel so demoralized. I want to marry this woman so freaking bad but I’ve f’d up so bad, I don’t see how I ever could. She’s giving me so many chances and I don’t believe she has anymore left in her. What should I do?
Please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Several weeks ago I broke up with my girlfriend (I was dumped) after a two year, back & forth relationship. Honestly she was every thing that I could have wished for and much more. She’s beautiful, smart, and has a number of great qualities that I could go on and on about. When I’m with her I feel so ALIVE that it’s almost like I’m on drugs. We had our share of good times and when we were together things were actually great. The problems within our relationship stemmed from my insecurities and my crippling shyness. I was never overbearing but probably way to passive in my approach. If you’ve read any of my previous posts you can read what I’m referring to. This past spring she left me for another guy although she was never completely honest about it. It was not until around July 4 th that she came clean about the other guy but again, not completely. One thing leads to another and we ended up back together by the end of August only to end up breaking up again. I don’t condone what she did behind my back nor am I trying to make any excuses for her behavior. However, if you’re like me and you believe in Newton’s law, I have to take responsibility for my actions that lead to her subsequent actions, if that make any sense.
So, for the past several weeks, again, I’ve been miserable and even contemplate(d) suicide. I feel that the one person that was able to take me out of my shell is no longer there. I have not gone out with the exception of work in the past month. Throughout this past summer, I rarely went out. I never have visitors over my place and there is absolutely nothing exciting about my life. I feel like I have NOTHING to look forward to. To say that I’m “miserable” would be a complete understatement. Meanwhile, I’m sure wherever my ex is; she is surely living her life to the fullest. To make matters worse, this Friday will be her 30 th birthday!!!
Friends, what should I do? The last time I reached out to her three weeks ago she never responded. I have no clue if she now in another relationship. I know you guys will think I need to get out more and start seeing other people but I feel so demoralized. I want to marry this woman so freaking bad but I’ve f’d up so bad, I don’t see how I ever could. She’s giving me so many chances and I don’t believe she has anymore left in her. What should I do?
Please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!