Fragile
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Every time I'm around other people I get tense and "stifled". And my vision flickers. (English is my second launguage so I don't know the proper wording for it.) I have a hard time maintaning eye contact, wich is critical, espescially when interacting with women I'm attracted to.
I notice that other people see this and take "a step back", you know what I mean? I feel like a freak sometimes beacuse of this and I don't know how to make it stop. I don't have any real friends or anything and my life feels shallow and empty.
I have REALLY tried to make it go away by pushing myself, staying in, noticing and going through social situations with multiple other people all over the place daily (almost) for over a year now, but I'm still all alone and getting stifled.
I have adopted a new positive mindset and vision of the future for me over the past twelve months, but this last thing keeps holding me back from creating any kind of friendship or relationship with anyone, and I seriously don't know how much more I can take of this loneliness, wich borders on isolation for me.
I have actually considered using some kind of substance to help me relax among other people, but I know how hellishly destructive such a choisce could be, so I'm trying to at least see if anyone else feels the same. Or has gone through this already and came out on the other side, or has any help to offer me in this matter.
Thanks in advance.
Fragile.
I notice that other people see this and take "a step back", you know what I mean? I feel like a freak sometimes beacuse of this and I don't know how to make it stop. I don't have any real friends or anything and my life feels shallow and empty.
I have REALLY tried to make it go away by pushing myself, staying in, noticing and going through social situations with multiple other people all over the place daily (almost) for over a year now, but I'm still all alone and getting stifled.
I have adopted a new positive mindset and vision of the future for me over the past twelve months, but this last thing keeps holding me back from creating any kind of friendship or relationship with anyone, and I seriously don't know how much more I can take of this loneliness, wich borders on isolation for me.
I have actually considered using some kind of substance to help me relax among other people, but I know how hellishly destructive such a choisce could be, so I'm trying to at least see if anyone else feels the same. Or has gone through this already and came out on the other side, or has any help to offer me in this matter.
Thanks in advance.
Fragile.