Im typing from my phone (no computer) so I appoligize for the txt speech its just faster to type from a phone that way.
Anyway I don't want any advice n nobody needs to respond back. I just want somebody to no wat im going through. Im 29 yrs old n I've been single for 9 yrs. I've only had 2 bfs in my life n that includes high school. Both guys left me for another girl. I've tried dating and I've meet a few ppl but the furthest I've gotten was 5 dates before he just dissapeared. Im the only single person I know. Im the only single person my friends no. A male friend of mine told me im single cuz I look like a walrus. A female friend told me I needed to post "uglier" pictures of myself on my dating profile to "show the real u" I've since deleted my profile.
Im seriously thinking about posting an ad on Craigslist for a paid bf. Someone who will take my money n in return pretend to b my Guy for a week or so. I think I may post that ad after im finished here.
Im totally depressed because of this. I feel so ugly unwanted n unloved. Im lonely. Im not the best writer so I can't convey just how horrible I feel about myself. I think about suicide often. I would have killed myself yrs ago if I didn't have a child. I will wait to die till he's an adult.
I no all of this sounds petty but its a horrible feeling being so lonely n unloved. That's all.
Anyway I don't want any advice n nobody needs to respond back. I just want somebody to no wat im going through. Im 29 yrs old n I've been single for 9 yrs. I've only had 2 bfs in my life n that includes high school. Both guys left me for another girl. I've tried dating and I've meet a few ppl but the furthest I've gotten was 5 dates before he just dissapeared. Im the only single person I know. Im the only single person my friends no. A male friend of mine told me im single cuz I look like a walrus. A female friend told me I needed to post "uglier" pictures of myself on my dating profile to "show the real u" I've since deleted my profile.
Im seriously thinking about posting an ad on Craigslist for a paid bf. Someone who will take my money n in return pretend to b my Guy for a week or so. I think I may post that ad after im finished here.
Im totally depressed because of this. I feel so ugly unwanted n unloved. Im lonely. Im not the best writer so I can't convey just how horrible I feel about myself. I think about suicide often. I would have killed myself yrs ago if I didn't have a child. I will wait to die till he's an adult.
I no all of this sounds petty but its a horrible feeling being so lonely n unloved. That's all.