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seventhson
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I have been single all my life except for a week which turned out to be two years of heart break.
You see when I was 17 I went out with this girl. For a week she was really loving and we always held each others hand. I was to shy to kiss her.
She broke up with me and after 3 months of not seeing her she was back in my life(she was my aunts friend at the time) She said she wanted to get back together with me. But I had to go to college and get some education(I dropped out of highschool)I am not stupid or anything. So I went to college finished it got what I needed to get and yeah before that we stayed friends.
She took my out to movies and she lead me on for two years. Eventually it was so painful to even talk to her and I lost my temper and told her to f off. I saw her again after a year and we left on good terms.
But back to the main topic. I'm 22 now and I have had some girls intrested in me two of them. The one was long distance. So that fizzled out. Then Now I had one that talked to me for 6 months and is only about 20 minutes away from me. But yeah She was just using me for attention and tonight she ended it. It hurts a lot. I have never been good enough to ask a girl out in person.
So now I sit at home and I am so lonely. I feel like crying and my mom keeps on saying it will happen in time. Yet I'm the oldest in my family(the kids) And I'm the only one that has never even kissed anyone. I am really sad at the moment. I try to stay positive it works but then I see couples and It hurts. I have a friend but he would rather do drugs than go out and meet people.(not hard ones pot and lsd) I don't take any of that.
Most girls I have ever know have seen me as a brother. And it kills me. I just want to have some physical interaction with another person. Its been 6 years since I have had anyone in my arms. I work really hard at work. I come home to an empty bed. And no one to talk to about my day. I don't even want to come home anymore. All my flirting all ways ends up in failure. I have asked about 20 girls out in my life time. And only one said yes(not including the ones I met on the net) and that turned out to be the most hurtful time in my life.
Should I just give up and live my life alone and just accept that I was meant for no one. People tell me I am handsome and really gorgeous but I don't believe them.
Thanks for reading this.:shy:
You see when I was 17 I went out with this girl. For a week she was really loving and we always held each others hand. I was to shy to kiss her.
She broke up with me and after 3 months of not seeing her she was back in my life(she was my aunts friend at the time) She said she wanted to get back together with me. But I had to go to college and get some education(I dropped out of highschool)I am not stupid or anything. So I went to college finished it got what I needed to get and yeah before that we stayed friends.
She took my out to movies and she lead me on for two years. Eventually it was so painful to even talk to her and I lost my temper and told her to f off. I saw her again after a year and we left on good terms.
But back to the main topic. I'm 22 now and I have had some girls intrested in me two of them. The one was long distance. So that fizzled out. Then Now I had one that talked to me for 6 months and is only about 20 minutes away from me. But yeah She was just using me for attention and tonight she ended it. It hurts a lot. I have never been good enough to ask a girl out in person.
So now I sit at home and I am so lonely. I feel like crying and my mom keeps on saying it will happen in time. Yet I'm the oldest in my family(the kids) And I'm the only one that has never even kissed anyone. I am really sad at the moment. I try to stay positive it works but then I see couples and It hurts. I have a friend but he would rather do drugs than go out and meet people.(not hard ones pot and lsd) I don't take any of that.
Most girls I have ever know have seen me as a brother. And it kills me. I just want to have some physical interaction with another person. Its been 6 years since I have had anyone in my arms. I work really hard at work. I come home to an empty bed. And no one to talk to about my day. I don't even want to come home anymore. All my flirting all ways ends up in failure. I have asked about 20 girls out in my life time. And only one said yes(not including the ones I met on the net) and that turned out to be the most hurtful time in my life.
Should I just give up and live my life alone and just accept that I was meant for no one. People tell me I am handsome and really gorgeous but I don't believe them.
Thanks for reading this.:shy: