90sman
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I've been in love with my best friend for the past couple years. But I found out at Christmastime that she has a boyfriend and they've been together for 9 month now.
Now that I think about it, she was giving me hints all this time that she wanted something more with me but I never picked up on them. I suppose she got tired of waiting around for me and moved on. But maybe she still has feelings for me but thinks I don't feel the same way about her back.
I've been feeling down and depressed since finding this out, and it really brought down me during Christmas and New Years. She was all I could think about and the fact that she has a boyfriend. I've been having trouble falling asleep because I've been so depressed. I feel bothered that some other guy is with her and not me. It just seems strange. But at the same time, I'm glad she's happy.
However, I am worried that they're going to stay together and get married one day. I dread going on Facebook and possibly seeing a picture of her hand with an engagement ring on it announcing that she's engaged.
We were like Forrest and Jenny growing up. We met when we were toddlers and became friends in the first grade. From then on, we were closer than peas and carrots or however the saying goes. We even had our first kiss together when we were 8 years old and I still remember the moment 11 years later. We used to talk on the phone for hours on a daily basis and go to each other's houses often. We've had a lot of great times together and I'm always thinking back on our years of growing up. She's always been there for me and has really done things to show that she cared about me. When we were 10 years old, she told me on the phone that she loved me. Of course, that was 8 or 9 years ago, I'm not sure she still feels the same way about me.
Unfortunately, we have grown apart in the past couple years due to us being busy with jobs. But she has messaged me several times in the past year saying she wants us to hang out and that she misses me.
I've been emotional wreck for the past few weeks. I do miss her and want to see her like old times, but I feel uncomfortable doing so now that she has a boyfriend. I've thought about writing her a letter telling her how I feel about her and say that it's maybe best if we "depart".
What do I do? Any advice on how to deal with this?
Now that I think about it, she was giving me hints all this time that she wanted something more with me but I never picked up on them. I suppose she got tired of waiting around for me and moved on. But maybe she still has feelings for me but thinks I don't feel the same way about her back.
I've been feeling down and depressed since finding this out, and it really brought down me during Christmas and New Years. She was all I could think about and the fact that she has a boyfriend. I've been having trouble falling asleep because I've been so depressed. I feel bothered that some other guy is with her and not me. It just seems strange. But at the same time, I'm glad she's happy.
However, I am worried that they're going to stay together and get married one day. I dread going on Facebook and possibly seeing a picture of her hand with an engagement ring on it announcing that she's engaged.
We were like Forrest and Jenny growing up. We met when we were toddlers and became friends in the first grade. From then on, we were closer than peas and carrots or however the saying goes. We even had our first kiss together when we were 8 years old and I still remember the moment 11 years later. We used to talk on the phone for hours on a daily basis and go to each other's houses often. We've had a lot of great times together and I'm always thinking back on our years of growing up. She's always been there for me and has really done things to show that she cared about me. When we were 10 years old, she told me on the phone that she loved me. Of course, that was 8 or 9 years ago, I'm not sure she still feels the same way about me.
Unfortunately, we have grown apart in the past couple years due to us being busy with jobs. But she has messaged me several times in the past year saying she wants us to hang out and that she misses me.
I've been emotional wreck for the past few weeks. I do miss her and want to see her like old times, but I feel uncomfortable doing so now that she has a boyfriend. I've thought about writing her a letter telling her how I feel about her and say that it's maybe best if we "depart".
What do I do? Any advice on how to deal with this?