Why am I alone? Where do I start? Growing up (grade school and junior high) I had a lot of friends – I hung with the popular kids. Key Events in my life happened to me that have left me without a friend today.
My father died when my mom was three months pregnant with me and remarried when I was seven. I don’t have much of a relationship with my step-dad. All I know about my real dad is that he used to beat my mom (one time so bad that it caused her to lose a child) and cheat on her.
When I was in sixth grade- I went over to a friend’s house to play baseball. His German Sheppard got loose and attacked me. I was bite in face (it was split open ) and had to have a total of three surgeries on my face and ear to deal with the scarring/cosmetics. I was afraid to be around people after this happened.
Growing up (grade school) my mom would go on rampages and mood swings and was put into a mental hospital for a couple of weeks because they didn’t know what was wrong with her. I could never go to my parents when I needed advice or needed help with something…
In Eighth grade- things changed drastically. I still hung out with the cool/popular kids but that changed in the second half of this year. Basically all of my friends turned against me and I got the “nerd” label. Basically didn’t want to hang out with me anymore.
My first year in high school was horrible. I was singled out by a bully and he would threaten me and took my lunch money every day. I was teased by other classmates because I was tall and skinny.
Luckily the bullying stopped my sophomore year but I was still picked on and made fun of the rest of high school.
I did manage to make a friend at a part- time job my sophomore year in high school. We've grown apart every since college and I haven't talked to him in about three years.
I did not date at all in high school and did not have my first date until I was twenty years old and it wasn’t the greatest experience. I was so thrilled to have met someone that I thought that enjoyed spending time with me but that was short lived- ended it by telling me how I didn’t have any diseases and that she was sure that I’d meet someone someday. My dating options have been on-line and I’ve had a couple relationships but I’ve realized that I stayed in those relationships rather than be alone. I’ve been told I’ve very attractive but I think I turn most people off because I’m shy and don’t have much to talk about when I meet new people.
I worked and went to college and didn’t have time to meet new people/socialize since I was either at work; school, studying, or sleeping…
Right now- I don’t feel comfortable in large groups but prefer smaller groups of people. I’m at a point in my life where I’m just tired of being alone and dread the weekends of being by myself. I want to have friends but its hard meeting new people and not having the social skills to develop friendships.
My father died when my mom was three months pregnant with me and remarried when I was seven. I don’t have much of a relationship with my step-dad. All I know about my real dad is that he used to beat my mom (one time so bad that it caused her to lose a child) and cheat on her.
When I was in sixth grade- I went over to a friend’s house to play baseball. His German Sheppard got loose and attacked me. I was bite in face (it was split open ) and had to have a total of three surgeries on my face and ear to deal with the scarring/cosmetics. I was afraid to be around people after this happened.
Growing up (grade school) my mom would go on rampages and mood swings and was put into a mental hospital for a couple of weeks because they didn’t know what was wrong with her. I could never go to my parents when I needed advice or needed help with something…
In Eighth grade- things changed drastically. I still hung out with the cool/popular kids but that changed in the second half of this year. Basically all of my friends turned against me and I got the “nerd” label. Basically didn’t want to hang out with me anymore.
My first year in high school was horrible. I was singled out by a bully and he would threaten me and took my lunch money every day. I was teased by other classmates because I was tall and skinny.
Luckily the bullying stopped my sophomore year but I was still picked on and made fun of the rest of high school.
I did manage to make a friend at a part- time job my sophomore year in high school. We've grown apart every since college and I haven't talked to him in about three years.
I did not date at all in high school and did not have my first date until I was twenty years old and it wasn’t the greatest experience. I was so thrilled to have met someone that I thought that enjoyed spending time with me but that was short lived- ended it by telling me how I didn’t have any diseases and that she was sure that I’d meet someone someday. My dating options have been on-line and I’ve had a couple relationships but I’ve realized that I stayed in those relationships rather than be alone. I’ve been told I’ve very attractive but I think I turn most people off because I’m shy and don’t have much to talk about when I meet new people.
I worked and went to college and didn’t have time to meet new people/socialize since I was either at work; school, studying, or sleeping…
Right now- I don’t feel comfortable in large groups but prefer smaller groups of people. I’m at a point in my life where I’m just tired of being alone and dread the weekends of being by myself. I want to have friends but its hard meeting new people and not having the social skills to develop friendships.
