the-alchemist
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Anyone else here sort of feels the same way? My childhood was so dysfunctional and full of, well, problems. I don't wanna say hate, but I do dislike all my family except my mom. In fact, these days I use my middle name, while back then everybody called me by my first name. This is how much I renounce my former life, it was simply full of bad things and negativity.
For that reason, I don't talk about my past with people. Whenever I get questions about it, I give vague generic answers or I change the subject. I'm not sure how to deal with it in the distant future, in case I'll ever marry for example. What would my future wife think if she sees that I basically don't have family? My ******* brother lives his life far away, I'm estranged with my father, and I have broken contact with my relatives. My mom is the only one I still have contact with, and that is because of the economic support she gives me.
So I don't know how to deal with it once it'll catch up to me. It's far beyond repair, and yet, I gotta deal with it somehow
For that reason, I don't talk about my past with people. Whenever I get questions about it, I give vague generic answers or I change the subject. I'm not sure how to deal with it in the distant future, in case I'll ever marry for example. What would my future wife think if she sees that I basically don't have family? My ******* brother lives his life far away, I'm estranged with my father, and I have broken contact with my relatives. My mom is the only one I still have contact with, and that is because of the economic support she gives me.
So I don't know how to deal with it once it'll catch up to me. It's far beyond repair, and yet, I gotta deal with it somehow