Lost Drifter
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I’m alone but not always lonely. I could easily answer “all the time” or “everywhere” but that would be a lie so I’ve spent the past couple of days thinking about when or where my loneliness triggers the most.
I’m fine at home for the most part; I can attribute any sense of loneliness to my own self-made isolation (i.e. I’m home alone) but really get down when I see those huge New Year count downs on the television. I really hate those shows. I’m ok while out shopping, I’m more concerned about getting what I need than feeling alone but feel a tad sorry for myself when I see those massive family shopping trolleys sat next to my insignificant basket filled with meals for one.
Cinemas are ok during show times but walking alone through a cinema lobby packed with crowds of excited friends on a night out often pulls on the lonesome heartstrings. Eating out is another, dining alone can be awkward enough but lots of restaurants or cafes seem to go out of their way to make single diners feel uncomfortable. Ever had that look of shock when you ask for a table for one? Or see the waiter hurriedly clear up all the other plates leaving you surrounded by a barrier of empty table space? I’m fond of sampling new foods but eating out alone has become a massive no-no.
I think work is where I feel the loneliest, so much to the point where it’s damaging my self-esteem. It’s a place where everyone knows my name yet treat me like a total stranger, avoiding conversation if not avoiding eye contact all together, talking over me and around me like I don’t even exist.
That for me is when I feel the loneliest. What about you?
I’m fine at home for the most part; I can attribute any sense of loneliness to my own self-made isolation (i.e. I’m home alone) but really get down when I see those huge New Year count downs on the television. I really hate those shows. I’m ok while out shopping, I’m more concerned about getting what I need than feeling alone but feel a tad sorry for myself when I see those massive family shopping trolleys sat next to my insignificant basket filled with meals for one.
Cinemas are ok during show times but walking alone through a cinema lobby packed with crowds of excited friends on a night out often pulls on the lonesome heartstrings. Eating out is another, dining alone can be awkward enough but lots of restaurants or cafes seem to go out of their way to make single diners feel uncomfortable. Ever had that look of shock when you ask for a table for one? Or see the waiter hurriedly clear up all the other plates leaving you surrounded by a barrier of empty table space? I’m fond of sampling new foods but eating out alone has become a massive no-no.
I think work is where I feel the loneliest, so much to the point where it’s damaging my self-esteem. It’s a place where everyone knows my name yet treat me like a total stranger, avoiding conversation if not avoiding eye contact all together, talking over me and around me like I don’t even exist.
That for me is when I feel the loneliest. What about you?
