cryingcloud
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So it's summer...and for the past two summers it's been the same...IM ALONE. Everyday, 5 days a week, I'm alone all day and no way of getting out. Im a teenager(17)with a license but no car...and will never get a car until I'm on my own and can buy it myself. I have a job, but they don't give me a lot of hours, and even if they did...how would I get there? It's a struggle getting there now. My family only has ONE car and four family members. We all work. I go through everyone in my contacts to see if they would be up to hang out, but it's always the same...either they work(because they actually get hours)or they are out of town. Witch I understand because it's summer, people go places...but not my family. We don't do anything together. I live with my mom and my two older brothers who are currently home from college. As soon as my mom gets home from work, she goes in her room and that's the last time I see her till she gets back the next day..and for like..two seconds. My brothers are always out and about, they are NEVER home. Though even if they are it doesn't make a difference. I haven't spoken to one of my brothers in a month. We had a big fight and I can't see my self forgiving him for the things he said to me. The other one, he's impossible to see because he's always busy with work, or vacationing with his girlfriend and her family(He lives with her durring the summers)and he only stops bye every now and then to feed his lizards. So there I stay in my room, infront of my computer, with no one but myself, and that's not a good thing. I don't do well by myself. I start thinking about bad things in my life and about me. I understand, we don't have the money for vacations...but I'm not asking for that. What's a little trip out to get an icecream or something? Anything? No, because my moms always tired. I've talked to my grandmother about how I'm feeling lately and she understands, but then she tells my mom, and as I could've predicted, she didn't. She took it to offense and got mad at me.I just want to be in control of my life...and as the summer curse continues...I control less and less.