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WallflowerGirl83
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My whole life I grew up having friends, but as I got a lot older, I grew distant and didn't like talking to people. It kinda scared me going out in public and seeing someone I know. Most of the time now, I spend at home, watching movies, reading and writing, playing video games, swimming and trying to entertain myself cause it's so hard for me to trust someone. Who do I know if they have good intentions or not. So many people took advantage of my kindness and once I realized there not even my friends it made me depressed. Overtime I grew more distant, got severly depressed. And now I'm starting to feel comfortable being alone, but at the same time all I really want is just a true friend I can count on and who will understand me. Not to top it off, but when I do make friends, over time they stop calling me. Maybe my shyness and weirdness makes them uncomfortalbe... I have no idea. Hope there's someone who understands what I mean by this post. I know I rambled on there but my mind is racing so fast.