Bill Compton
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I'm going to keep this short as possible...
I grew up as a musician, loving writing and always knew clearly through teens and my twenties this is the path I wanted, my passion. I worked my way through my twenties doing music and sound degrees and doing really, really well on both until finally struggling through the TV industry to become a sound engineer, a job I got within three years (which is really quick) and was proud of it.
Here is the thing. Through my five years in TV in London all I have done is lose money and gained no capital. I've actually come out in debt. I've hit 30 and I've some kind of crisis because I cannot stop looking at my contemporaries, my friends and what they have achieved. Most didn't follow the musical path and have office based jobs, they are paid really well and have houses and cars and I don't understand why I don't have this.
they know I am a stupidly hard working person but I have nothing. I took the hard route, the struggle for work, being a runner and having no money for years and years, kissing ass and slogging away to realise a dream.
But I'm 30, and I can't help think that was a dream of a man in his 20's, a cool job. I can't help resent my friends and people I know for taking the easy option and it paying off... a cruel irony.
Im staying at my parents right now and I have NO IDEA what I should do career wise.... totally lost. TV just reeks of poorness and endless struggle. Im not greedy but I want to make sure I have enough money for things like looking after my parents, securing a pension etc....
And how Im ever gonna attract a girl is beyond me.... I used to find it really easy and have been lucky to have several very beautiful gf in my twenties.
I'm not feeling pity for myself, I just want equality, my more fair world....
I grew up as a musician, loving writing and always knew clearly through teens and my twenties this is the path I wanted, my passion. I worked my way through my twenties doing music and sound degrees and doing really, really well on both until finally struggling through the TV industry to become a sound engineer, a job I got within three years (which is really quick) and was proud of it.
Here is the thing. Through my five years in TV in London all I have done is lose money and gained no capital. I've actually come out in debt. I've hit 30 and I've some kind of crisis because I cannot stop looking at my contemporaries, my friends and what they have achieved. Most didn't follow the musical path and have office based jobs, they are paid really well and have houses and cars and I don't understand why I don't have this.
they know I am a stupidly hard working person but I have nothing. I took the hard route, the struggle for work, being a runner and having no money for years and years, kissing ass and slogging away to realise a dream.
But I'm 30, and I can't help think that was a dream of a man in his 20's, a cool job. I can't help resent my friends and people I know for taking the easy option and it paying off... a cruel irony.
Im staying at my parents right now and I have NO IDEA what I should do career wise.... totally lost. TV just reeks of poorness and endless struggle. Im not greedy but I want to make sure I have enough money for things like looking after my parents, securing a pension etc....
And how Im ever gonna attract a girl is beyond me.... I used to find it really easy and have been lucky to have several very beautiful gf in my twenties.
I'm not feeling pity for myself, I just want equality, my more fair world....