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Bluey
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This is going to be my story to see if I can make any Sean's of the way things have turned out for me.
I was never the most popular kid at school. I always had one are two friends tho.
Things where going kinder normal even tho I was always at the bottom of the class for everything. I hated school with a pashen.
when I was eleven I got up one morning and could not walk. I was admitted to hospital where I ended up passing out from pain. I come round about two days later so I am told. I had just had a 24 48 hour virus that had paralysed me from the wast down and could no longer walk are even go to the toilet on my own. They told me that I would never walk again. As this had happened to one other person that they know off and she remains in a wheelchair to this day. I keep trying to get out of bed in the hospital and got told of by the nurse's there in a very nasty way. This did not bother me. even tho I was only eleven. Eventrully tho I did learn to walk again after years of physio. But one leg grow back faster then the other. I went back to school after nearly a full year off. I was lucky to be alive. But at school I was very easily pushed to the grand and as I was still growing I started to get a limp where my left leg was not growing as fast as my right.
I don't have hardly any feeling in my left leg are in certain parts of my body. Soon I was starting to get bulled at school. They thought it was funny to push me to the ground so easily. I was to ashamed to say anything to someone.
I did get my strength after a bit. But it was a long Battle that took years to get to where I was able to keep my balents better then I did.
Because I walked with a limp all them years when I was 18 and walking in some kitchens with hops of becoming a chef I had to leave work and all my friends that I had made there and go and have an oppression on my spine to correct the Cuvier I had got do to walking. This was seres stuff and needed two meager operations in the space of 3 months. I had to stay in traschen the hole time for that 3 moths. I still have a curvier and as a result of that and my walking I can no longer work as am not strong enough. Plus why I was in hospital I had my girlfriend two time me for my best mate. I dumped her as soon as I found out and never seen her are my mate again.
Also after all that stuff I then had 9 months with a fixator. basically that is one of this in my left leg for 9 moths to lengthen it
It did by 6cm but its still shorter by about 4cm and if I go anywhere with out a rise in my shew I would soon be in a lot of pain.
So am left with a body that's twisted up all over the place a leg that's weaker and shorter then the other one and scers al over the place. I hate what I see in the mirror when I look at myself naked.
I struggle to walk all tho I am glad I still can. I had just had to have an huernia repair and I am now fully recover from that but I don't work and have very fer friends. I would differently say I don't have a best friend.
I would like to get out and start to enjoy myself. But how can I when walking is an effort and I get tied so fast its unreal. I did go to this disabled place to see if there was any fun things to do there. But every one there needs looking after and are really badly disabled and some are mentally disabled as well. I am disabled but not totally as I can drive walk and look after myself. Am in the middle.
I would love to go on holiday with someone. And would eserly be able to find someone to go with but every one I know are fit and I can not keep up. The last holiday I went on was a lot of years ago now and it was no fun riping my self out trying to keep up with the guy I went with.
See am the sort of guy that loves dancing and loud music but is unable to go clubbing as its just to much like affect to be walking to the pubs and the clubs like you do on a night out.
I suppose am trying to find something I enjoy that gets me out there that I can do. I have done some casual work like pizza delivery guy and I acutely ended up cooking the things after the owner found out I could cook. If I had better health I would of ended up buying that place. It was offered to me. But now my health has got so I cert even do a few houwers a week doing something like that. I do still walk every where all tho it be slow and you can tell there is something wrong even with the rise in there. I did take an electric chair to a feam park I went to about 6 months ago but I have to admit I hated the fact that everyone was looking at me in that way. But there is no way I can could of got round that on foot. So I am at a bit of a dead end. and I know my health ent getting any better then it is.
I am normal in that I would like to fined a girlfriend but there's not just the health eshos. I get shy round girls I like in that way and have no confidence there. I now its down to lack of experience but that's not helping me any. Also all the women my age look alder enough to be my mum as I look like 10 yeas younger then I am. (Check out the post your pick thread to see what I mean) Am 33 and do know feel like time is running out for me. And if I didn't meet anyone when I did have the energy to go clubbing what is the chancers now am not doing stuff like that. Its been that long Ive been on my own now am not even sure that I do wont to meat anyone any moor. I don't seam to clack with girls in that way no moor. Actually that's probably cos am not meeting enough. But you get what I mean.
I need to get creative and start using what Ive got. Time is no longer my friend and I do not wont to be a lonely old man that dies and no one knows for weeks on end in tell home help find out. I ent the fittest guy fro no fault of my own but I do need to find love and happiness from somewhere? any advice would be apprechated.
That was kinder how I feel with some background to me. There has been moor health problem's and its a little moor complex then that above but this is already to much to read as it is.
PS I doubt very much that I would read all that so do not balm anyone for not. I did this for me getting stuff out and trying to understand stuff just as much as trying to get some advice.
pps sorry for the bad grammar, I do try my best. Its a problem that continues to plague me.
I was never the most popular kid at school. I always had one are two friends tho.
Things where going kinder normal even tho I was always at the bottom of the class for everything. I hated school with a pashen.
when I was eleven I got up one morning and could not walk. I was admitted to hospital where I ended up passing out from pain. I come round about two days later so I am told. I had just had a 24 48 hour virus that had paralysed me from the wast down and could no longer walk are even go to the toilet on my own. They told me that I would never walk again. As this had happened to one other person that they know off and she remains in a wheelchair to this day. I keep trying to get out of bed in the hospital and got told of by the nurse's there in a very nasty way. This did not bother me. even tho I was only eleven. Eventrully tho I did learn to walk again after years of physio. But one leg grow back faster then the other. I went back to school after nearly a full year off. I was lucky to be alive. But at school I was very easily pushed to the grand and as I was still growing I started to get a limp where my left leg was not growing as fast as my right.
I don't have hardly any feeling in my left leg are in certain parts of my body. Soon I was starting to get bulled at school. They thought it was funny to push me to the ground so easily. I was to ashamed to say anything to someone.
I did get my strength after a bit. But it was a long Battle that took years to get to where I was able to keep my balents better then I did.
Because I walked with a limp all them years when I was 18 and walking in some kitchens with hops of becoming a chef I had to leave work and all my friends that I had made there and go and have an oppression on my spine to correct the Cuvier I had got do to walking. This was seres stuff and needed two meager operations in the space of 3 months. I had to stay in traschen the hole time for that 3 moths. I still have a curvier and as a result of that and my walking I can no longer work as am not strong enough. Plus why I was in hospital I had my girlfriend two time me for my best mate. I dumped her as soon as I found out and never seen her are my mate again.
Also after all that stuff I then had 9 months with a fixator. basically that is one of this in my left leg for 9 moths to lengthen it
It did by 6cm but its still shorter by about 4cm and if I go anywhere with out a rise in my shew I would soon be in a lot of pain.
So am left with a body that's twisted up all over the place a leg that's weaker and shorter then the other one and scers al over the place. I hate what I see in the mirror when I look at myself naked.
I struggle to walk all tho I am glad I still can. I had just had to have an huernia repair and I am now fully recover from that but I don't work and have very fer friends. I would differently say I don't have a best friend.
I would like to get out and start to enjoy myself. But how can I when walking is an effort and I get tied so fast its unreal. I did go to this disabled place to see if there was any fun things to do there. But every one there needs looking after and are really badly disabled and some are mentally disabled as well. I am disabled but not totally as I can drive walk and look after myself. Am in the middle.
I would love to go on holiday with someone. And would eserly be able to find someone to go with but every one I know are fit and I can not keep up. The last holiday I went on was a lot of years ago now and it was no fun riping my self out trying to keep up with the guy I went with.
See am the sort of guy that loves dancing and loud music but is unable to go clubbing as its just to much like affect to be walking to the pubs and the clubs like you do on a night out.
I suppose am trying to find something I enjoy that gets me out there that I can do. I have done some casual work like pizza delivery guy and I acutely ended up cooking the things after the owner found out I could cook. If I had better health I would of ended up buying that place. It was offered to me. But now my health has got so I cert even do a few houwers a week doing something like that. I do still walk every where all tho it be slow and you can tell there is something wrong even with the rise in there. I did take an electric chair to a feam park I went to about 6 months ago but I have to admit I hated the fact that everyone was looking at me in that way. But there is no way I can could of got round that on foot. So I am at a bit of a dead end. and I know my health ent getting any better then it is.
I am normal in that I would like to fined a girlfriend but there's not just the health eshos. I get shy round girls I like in that way and have no confidence there. I now its down to lack of experience but that's not helping me any. Also all the women my age look alder enough to be my mum as I look like 10 yeas younger then I am. (Check out the post your pick thread to see what I mean) Am 33 and do know feel like time is running out for me. And if I didn't meet anyone when I did have the energy to go clubbing what is the chancers now am not doing stuff like that. Its been that long Ive been on my own now am not even sure that I do wont to meat anyone any moor. I don't seam to clack with girls in that way no moor. Actually that's probably cos am not meeting enough. But you get what I mean.
I need to get creative and start using what Ive got. Time is no longer my friend and I do not wont to be a lonely old man that dies and no one knows for weeks on end in tell home help find out. I ent the fittest guy fro no fault of my own but I do need to find love and happiness from somewhere? any advice would be apprechated.
That was kinder how I feel with some background to me. There has been moor health problem's and its a little moor complex then that above but this is already to much to read as it is.
PS I doubt very much that I would read all that so do not balm anyone for not. I did this for me getting stuff out and trying to understand stuff just as much as trying to get some advice.
pps sorry for the bad grammar, I do try my best. Its a problem that continues to plague me.