Christmas is coming!

When I was a kid I really enjoyed all the holidays, and even though my family is still around, I do not enjoy them as much anymore. I feel out of place, everyone has a significant other, whether or they get along doesn't matter it makes me feel bad that I do not. Also college is on break, so I have nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, and nothing to be prepared for. The commercialism is starting to get to me. Although I am happy for some odd reason nowadays, everyone even people that have never got me anything for Christmas are buying me stuff for it. I always just ask for one thing every Christmas, nothing high priced, because I hate people buying me stuff. I don't understand the reasoning behind everyone making me the focal point this year, and I have told them multiple times I no longer enjoy the holidays. Its like they accepted that as a challenge. I am going to be alone like always the third wheel that people will talk to just to be nice, or because they hate their relationship right now. It will however only remind me that I have no significant other, and emotional am alone. I'm not sure how a bunch of presents will make me happier, or less lonely. I am happy people just lonely, and getting a lot of stuff for Christmas will only make me hate the holidays more.

so you are alone cos you dont have significant other and people are buying you presents even if you tell them not to? I dont get it.. some people dont even get presents and still manage to enjoy the holiday.

I think you should go to a quite place in the nature and think about what you want in life, how you want your life to be, which people you want or don't want around you. If you still come to the same conclusion, it is a good one.

All my time spending on just "thinking" is the worthy time i spend on a regular day. It makes your mind so peacefully, you know what you want and how you want it, the feeling of the tranquility in your head makes life much more enjoyable to me, for me it is the most important thing in life.

Its not the fact that I don't like getting presents, because I do. I just don't like getting so many that its makes it feel like thats what the holiday is about. Its like this year everyone is making Christmas about me, and that is not what it is about. I don't like being the one everyone worries about, when there is nothing to worry about. Christmas is about being with family and friends, but everyone is centered on me, and buying a honeysuckle ton of stuff. I just want everyone to not worry about me and actually see that I am happy, over commercializing the holiday will not make me feel better, even if I was unhappy.