Silvernight
Well-known member
I'm sorry to sound like a fragging drama queen, really I am. I usually avoid such statements. But I can't help it right now, I feel completely hopeless and I don't want to live. Why am I writing this here? Because this is probably the only place where no one will outright tell me to shut up and just get a grip because there are so many people that have worse problems than a stupid cosmetic disorder. Cosmetic disorder indeed.. I have a condition that is called androgenic alopecia (pattern baldness, often genetic and caused by the increased sensitivity of the hair follicles to the hormone DHT). It's not curable by current means, you can only slow it down (or fail to do it). It's now worse than ever before, I absolutely dread washing my hair and it is everywhere. If I ever was on the quick and sure path towards becoming bald and ugly, it is now. It's not like I have much of it left. Mesotherapy did have an effect at first but it didn't last and I cannot continue intensive procedures anyway, they're too expensive, I've already wasted lots of money on it. And just by the way, I'm a girl, so you can imagine what it feels like. If nothing else, this will definitely be an iron-clad reason for no one to even want to speak to me, let alone ever love me and can I truly blame them? No. Because bald women are ugly and this is apparently my impending fate.
I'm sorry to be so negative but I really want to just go and die in the corner, and I know no one can help. This is a pointless rant. It's just.. I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm sorry to be so negative but I really want to just go and die in the corner, and I know no one can help. This is a pointless rant. It's just.. I don't know what to do anymore.