Lady X
Well-known member
My anxiety attacks are really starting to get to me at the moment.
I've had them for a number of years now, since I was a teenager (so over a decade easily), but they are at a real peak at the moment and I feel really stuck as to what I can do to stop them from taking over my life again.
I have a panic disorder... so most of my anxiety attacks happen kinda at random with either no triggers at all, or the trigger being simply the fear of having an attack. When I have an attack my legs and arms go to jelly, I feel dizzy and cant see properly and if it lasts long enough I feel sick or like I need to go to the loo cause of all the adrenaline. Afterwards I feel totally drained.
I do pretty well at hiding the attacks, like at work or summat. I don't make a scene, and nobody might even know that at that very moment, I can barely see through dizziness and feel like I cant breathe.
But at the moment, they are getting me more and more often. When I'm asleep(!) or when I'm riding to work... as I ride a motorcycle, this is pretty dangerous and I've had to pull over for a breather a good few times now when I've realised I haven't got full control and have gone down to a 20mph crawl.
The thing is, I dunno what the trigger for all this is, or how I can stop it. I feel like I'm stuck in a whirlpool and the only way is down. It went away for a while when I was on anti-depressants, but I really don't want to go back on them as they won't give me a long term solution, just put a plaster/bandaid on a gushing wound.
I don't really know why I'm even posting this, maybe its to vent a little, maybe its to let folk know on here who I speak to online why I might now quite be chatty or myself atm (as I'm totally drained by the time I get home) or maybe someone on here has been through, or is going through, the same sorta stuff or the same condition and can offer a bit of advice or light at the end of the tunnel?
I've had them for a number of years now, since I was a teenager (so over a decade easily), but they are at a real peak at the moment and I feel really stuck as to what I can do to stop them from taking over my life again.
I have a panic disorder... so most of my anxiety attacks happen kinda at random with either no triggers at all, or the trigger being simply the fear of having an attack. When I have an attack my legs and arms go to jelly, I feel dizzy and cant see properly and if it lasts long enough I feel sick or like I need to go to the loo cause of all the adrenaline. Afterwards I feel totally drained.
I do pretty well at hiding the attacks, like at work or summat. I don't make a scene, and nobody might even know that at that very moment, I can barely see through dizziness and feel like I cant breathe.
But at the moment, they are getting me more and more often. When I'm asleep(!) or when I'm riding to work... as I ride a motorcycle, this is pretty dangerous and I've had to pull over for a breather a good few times now when I've realised I haven't got full control and have gone down to a 20mph crawl.
The thing is, I dunno what the trigger for all this is, or how I can stop it. I feel like I'm stuck in a whirlpool and the only way is down. It went away for a while when I was on anti-depressants, but I really don't want to go back on them as they won't give me a long term solution, just put a plaster/bandaid on a gushing wound.
I don't really know why I'm even posting this, maybe its to vent a little, maybe its to let folk know on here who I speak to online why I might now quite be chatty or myself atm (as I'm totally drained by the time I get home) or maybe someone on here has been through, or is going through, the same sorta stuff or the same condition and can offer a bit of advice or light at the end of the tunnel?